Black Glitter *Completed*

Never Forget That

I blushed. "Okay, I'm getting out here. I love you."

"I love you too. Let me know when you land?"

"Of course."

I let my eyes linger on him for a moment longer, then left the room.

The heartbreak kicked in the second I pulled out of the driveway.

ADAM'S POV

I sat on the edge of the bed, my body aching from my slumped position, but I didn't care.

I hadn't been asleep when I'd muttered that the accident hadn't been an accident at all. I answered the questions Nix asked me, I heard her run from the room and go downstairs, crying. It just made me hate myself more. Being forced to lay there, drenched in cold sweat, painkillers, and guilt.

Maybe it had been horrible to tell her that, and maybe it would backfire and I would get unwanted attention, an intervention or whatever, but I felt she had to know.

Because I hadn't been lying. I have no clue what took over me that day. It was almost as if my body moved before my brain, or my subconscious made the choice up for me, knowing that I was drowning in self-hatred and unable to think straight.

The screech of the wheels and the horn still rang in my ears as if I were still in the moment, and I winced.

But the fact that I still did it is what terrified me. I was at that point in my life where I couldn't handle the shit I'd gotten myself into and all the things I'd done. To Sauli, to Nix, to Lauren, to anyone and everyone I had ever wronged, the fans I had let down.

I shook myself, wishing to God I had that bottle of tequila that was downstairs, but I had to start learning to actually deal with things without trying to drink away the problem.

I carefully reached under my side of the bed for the ratty black notebook I kept there, flipped through some well worn pages and to the last one I'd been writing on. I skimmed over the lyrics written there, catching up with them in my head.

Before I met you woulda said I'm fine If you asked, if you asked, if you asked me

And then you gave that word another life

Yeah you got, yeah you got, yeah you got me I wore the pain on my face

Hoping someday it would fade

You know how to wash it away

Oh you do it

I wear the smile that you gave me

Won't take it off if you paid me

I wouldn't say that you saved me

But the truth is

Right when we met

You made me forget

That my heart was ever

Bro- broken

Looking at me

You wouldn't believe

That my heart was ever

Bro- broken

I tapped the pen against my lips in concentration. How could one even put Nix into words? She was indescribable to say the least.

Before I met you I wouldn't sleep alone

But it felt, but it felt, but it felt like it 

I moved my body, but my chest was stone

Couldn't break, couldn't break, couldn't break it

I wore the pain on my face

Hoping someday it would fade

You know how to wash it away

Oh you do it

I wear the smile that you gave me

Won't take it off if you paid me

I wouldn't say that you saved me

But the truth is

Right when we met

You made me forget

That my heart was ever

Bro- broken

Looking at me

You wouldn't believe

That my heart was ever

Bro- broken

Only you can make me forget that my

Heart's been broke

You got me feeling like

Only you can make me forget that my

Heart was ever broken

Bro-broken

Right when we met

You made me forget

That my heart was ever

Bro- broken

Looking at me

You wouldn't believe

That my heart was ever

Bro- broken

Bro- broken

I set aside the pen and read over the page a few times, making little changes here and there, then started humming a melody. Eh, that would take another day, but I liked what I had so far.

And hopefully so would she.

(Whew. Well, things should be heating up soon, though it may require a time jump...would you guys hate me for that? Skip the mushy-gushy and get to the nitty-gritty? (Not like THAT! Although, there will be plenty of THAT to come ;) )

 Sorry chapters have been short- all my creativity is not currently in this story right now, but my other story- my REAL book- is really hard to write and emotionally exhausting, so that's when I switch over to this.  And what with all the current excitement and crap over here in 'Murica, I have had no sleep whatsoever in three days!

 I was going to just do an imagine today but I instead finished this chapter. Hopefully I get motivated for that soon though. 

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P.S I do not own the song Broken by Tritonal and Adam Lambert, nor do I own the poem 'Tomorrows' by Atticus. Check them out on IG at Atticuspoetry! It's amazing, beautiful, and moving poetry that hits you right in the feels every. Single. Time.