I am not sure if I will ever be able to trust myself or others fully again.
I want to trust and love again. I want to trust my mind and my heart. I want to trust my judgement.
But i am afraid that if i do, that i may lose myself. I came so close to going over the edge the last time. I dove in with no thought or regards to how it might come out. I listened to the words that were being said and i believed them. I believed them all. And i almost lost myself. I did there for awhile. And i am still not whole. How can i take that chance again? When i am the only one who will say how i feel, how can i take the chance when i am the only one who knows how they want this to turnout.
