Its Halloween night. Im laying in bed, trying to fall asleep so I can wake up for school tomorrow. Its around 11:30 pm. Im not asleep yet, not even halfway. Im just thinking.
Im channeling the thoughts in my head and putting them into pictures. Im visualizing guns, traps, etc. The horror movies I watched earlier were starting to get to me. Im watching what plays in my head, its like a silent film: no sound, no color. Then a pistol goes off.
I hear a bang. From a gun. I knew it was from my head because it didnt jolt me up, it wasnt that loud either. But I knew it wasnt from my thoughts because I was controlling everything in my "film". I did not imagine a 'bang' at all and it scared me. I heard it in my head but it did not come from my mind.
I had stopped thinking to focus on the peculiarity of the sound when, all of a sudden, I felt something. It was in me, or rather, what wasnt in me, that I felt aching. In place of my heart, I felt emptiness. And not the sort of emotional emptiness, but physical. It felt as if nothing but air was swirling around. Like my heart had just disappeared and the organs around it were moving around, searching for it. It began to hurt me.
Suddenly an image flashed, very vividly, across my mind. It was a man in a black hoodie, in my room. Door open, room messy, with me laying on the bed, sleeping. He was pointing a gun at me. It seemed as if he already fired. I was not awake.
Then I put the pieces together and wondered the very horrible thing. Am I dead? Is that why I feel empty, why I see myself lying there? It hurt. I was terrified. I dont know what to do know.
