Hi guys my name is___ and my life sucked up until this point.
If you played that song its how I felt a lot.
I was born I Louisiana every thing was great until my mom got married. I hated the guys he was a complete annoyance! When ever he was annoyed with me he would make me lie down in dying cockroach positon.(its when you are on your back with your legs in the air) he said don't move so I didn't I always cried in that position it hurt a lot. I thought about cutting a lot during this time period but I only tried it once it hurt a lot( guess I'm a coward huh?) I wasn't really ready for that. My step dad was I pervert and he was mentally abusive I was afraid to come out of my room at times even to go to the bathroom because he would always sit practically outside my door in the gameroom and listen to everything I do and complain about it to my mom. I.Couldn't.Stand.Him.
He made my life and my moms life a living hell and he still acts like he doesn't do anything. He never admits to his wrong doings and he never took any blame he always blamed me HE STILL BLAMES ME!!!!! I do everything I can I my life and it never enough... How can one person have that much hate in their body. He's just EVIL.I just want to scream out profanities every time I think of him. One day his anger got to he and almost hit me and he's a big guy so this would have seriously hurt me or killed me. I was so scared at that point.. He scared me! My step dad that is supposed to love and protect me!I hate him. He's ruined my life I hardly smiled my Junior year in high school it was so hard to make friends. It's still pretty hard but I'm getting there. (God I feel like crying😭) life has been hard for me but I'm getting though.
I got moved from lousisana to Houston tx its pretty big here lots of people and stuff but when your living under the same roof with a step dad like mine or someone similar message me whenever and we'll talk I could use a friend too😄
Anyway my life was just peachy when he came into my life I was worried that I would be asulted living with that man was the worst point of my life he now hates me I'm sure of it.😅 but I don't care I lived only for my mom without her I'd probably have killed myself living with that man thank God we're gone if my mom had died and left me with him I don't think I'd be the same I love my mom but I'd kill her again if she left me with him
His weird habits conclude of farting on purpose, eating a lot and he's already FAT, watching me from wherever, whenever I go downstairs, cursing a lot, making messing and nevering cleaning EVER, lying, never apologizing, watching porn, making me want to cry and kill him, playing music to loud, being a hipocrite, can't keep a job if he gets one its temporary, stepping out of line and trying to use violence, blaming me for everything, repeting things, arguing shouting always wants to be right, he's repetitive, wants everyone to believe he's some holy man, he discriminates, says everything is his all the time. There's a lot more but I'll save that for another time.🙏
