It was a rather stormy night, the wind whistled brutally through the trees, Dan and Phil were cuddling on the couch while watching an anime movie. A strike of lightning struck, and the power suddenly went out, causing the two to jump a bit as the room went pitch black.
"Maybe we should just go to bed?" Phil asked once he caught his breath back.
"You're right, goodnight Phil."
"Goodnight Dan!" Phil replied.
They headed to their bedrooms for the night, another sleepless night went by for Dan, he hasn't slept well in so long. Lately he has just been feeling so down, but he has not told anyone about it, not even Phil. His thoughts were spiralling around in his head faster than a tornado but he had to act as though he was calm even though his world was falling apart. He had started cutting himself about a year ago, at the moment he is a month clean, but lately he is having troubles staying clean and the temptations are taking over his mind again. He is laying down in bed listening to those thoughts, his demons taking control over his once beautiful and peaceful mind. The only good thing he could think of at the moment was cuddling Phil with a nice movie, but Mother Nature got in the way of his temporary joy. What could just one more cut do Dan? He shut his eyes firmly begging for all the voices to stop harassing him. But they won't stop until he gives in. He is curled up into a ball covering his entire body under his bed sheets, he began quietly crying until he finally fell sleep. The next morning he woke up to his beautiful roommate cooking some pancakes for them, the storm seems to have left but dan still feels very depressed.
"Good morning sleeping beauty."
Phil says with a smirk.
"Hey, don't I normally wake up before
you?"
"Yeah but this morning it was me!"
"Oh wow ok, hey can we talk about something?"
"Sure what is it?"
Before Dan can even attempt to speak about what was on his mind he quickly changes his mind.
"Oh well I just wanted to know when we were going to make the next Dil video?"
"Um whenever really, sometime soon though"
"Ok."
They proceed to eat while watching anime. The day goes by in a flash and next thing Dan knows it's night again, the time where all his fears, all the pain comes flowing back in an instant. This night isn't like last night though, Dan couldn't fight the temptation and he lost his clean streak. He was determined to get help, and tell one of his friends, but he doesn't want Phil to know under any circumstances. He called cat and made plans to meet at a restaurant to talk about it over a nice meal. They both showed up then sat down at a table and ordered a meal. As they waited for the meal Dan confessed what had happened the previous night causing cat to panic a bit.
"I am so sorry, the temptation was too much for me to handle, please don't tell Phil! He would be so upset!"
The food got there.
"Um ok I won't. Can we just eat our meal?"
"Yeah that would be a good idea."
The only sound that filled the room was the music of the restaurant, and everything was filled with an awkward vibe. The meal finished and without even saying bye they left. Her home was closer to the restaurant so she got home sooner. When Dan arrived home he was greeted by a crying Phil.
"D-Dan?"
"Yea Phil?" Dan sighs out hopelessly.
"D-did you c-c-cut again?" He begins crying.
"Yeah, I am sorry Phil!" Dan says angry at cat for telling him. Phil began crying and yelling at Dan, he had never seen Phil so upset. Phil called a counsellor to meet up with Dan as soon as they can, they told Phil that they can squeeze Dan in that night. Dan didn't want to go to the counsellors they never really understand him. When he got to the counsellor the counsellor only talked about their problems, that didn't really bother Dan because he didn't want to tell them anything about himself. It was time to leave and Phil was eager to know if it helped out a bit. Dan smiled and said that it really did, but the only thing it did was make Dan hate the counsellor and it put him in an even worst mood than he had previously been in. That night Dan did it all over again, this time more than the previous night, and they were all deeper. Because of this major blood loss he collapsed to the floor causing a thumping sound. Phil came rushing into his room and was petrified with the scene that he had seen, his best friend, his world and his life was laying on the ground, a blade in his hand and a small puddle of blood on the floor. He had a big panic attack, he called the ambulance crying about what had happened to his friend. As they arrived and brought Dan to the hospital Phil collapsed to the floor crying, trying to figure out why Dan cuts himself. It suddenly hits him, a voice in his head telling him that he should try to do it. Phil was in such a vulnerable place that a demon saw the chance and took it, Phil doesn't even try to fight the temptation and he does. The second the blade pushed into his skin he felt relief, he felt free, he felt better. He realized why people do it, it gives them a high feeling, it makes them feel free of anything in their life. Phil heads to the hospital, and the doctors said that Dan will be making a fast recovery. They both head home the next day, and Dan apologizes for everything that he has caused Phil. Phil tells Dan that he forgives him.
"I should probably tell you something
Dan."
"What is it?"
"Well, I cut myself when you were gone."
"Ph-Phil. Show me!"
Phil pulls up his sleeve and reveals fresh cuts on his arm. Dan hopelessly grabs Phil's arm and cries wondering why he had to be so stupid, not only did he have a chance of ruining his life but he could've ruined Phil's life.
"Please never ever cut again, please I am begging you Phil!"
"Well I don't know. I will try."
"You saw what it did to me."
"You're right I will never cut again."
"I won't either."
They both said those empty promises that everyone says.
