my freshman year of high school I Identified as pansexual I dated mostly guys and two girls I started thinking about who I really wanted to be more and where I wanted to go with my life I made a big decision which was that I wanted to be a transsexual male but my parents weren't down with the idea so I dropped it for a while and I identified as a pansexual gender fluid turtle because turtles my nick name I didn't like identifying as a female or male because I didn't know what I wanted to be I knew I wanted to be a transsexual male but I knew my family was against it so I kinda just dropped the subject at the time I was dating a guy named joey and I talked to him about it and he didn't seem weirded out by it as much as oh well if that's what you truly want them do you I started talking to his bestfriends matt and steven I talked to matt alot more and I talked to him a few times about my sexuality and I didn't realize right away that id liked him but when I did realize I had realized my feelings were there for a while and at the time we were both dating someone but I didn't wanna hide the fact that I liked him anymore I wasn't even really hiding it so much as I just didn't straight up tell him I mean we had those long sorta ackward hugs where neither of you want to let go and I stole his hat and stuff but I never had straight up told him I'm pretty sure I told his sister I liked him before I told him lol
