I'll Be There

who do you love?

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"I-I think she's cheating on me." I heard her voice crack and I almost cried with her. The pain was evident in her voice. She hurting. My baby is hurting all because of her.

That was the last thing she said before I hung up and rushed over to her house. Normani doesn't deserve this and Dinah doesn't deserve her. When Mani first introduced us, it was something about her that didn't sit well with me. I tried telling Mani. I tried warning her but she just didn't listen. She so stubborn.

Fuck Dinah honestly. How could anyone cheat on her? How can you be with someone as amazing as her and not treat her like the princess she is? I really just want to slap some sense into that girl. I would never do that to Mani. I'll never even have the chance to show her how special she is.

It's hard watching the one person you love be in love with someone else. So many nights I cried myself to sleep. I tried to isolate myself and move on. I tried so hard but I just can't. I love her and I always will. I guess I'll have to love her from a distance. Im nothing more than her best friend.

I pulled up to her house. I looked and seen that all the lights were off. Over the years I tend to notice that she sits in the dark when she's inconsolable. I quickly jogged to the door, opening it.

I headed up to her room. Soft sobbing was all that filled the air. She spoke out after feeling my presence.

"How could she? I-I..." She cut herself off with her own crying. I walked up to the distress beauty, engulfing her in my arms. I lead her to the bed and laid down with her. I didn't tell her that things would get better. That's not what she wanted to hear. She never liked for someone to tell her that. I just rubbed her back until her breathing evened out. I assumed she was sleep.

I sat there thinking. I thought about how someone else was able to make her happy. I could never do that. I could never be the one she starts a life with. Im not the one to give her the world. It will never be me.

I didn't realize the tears running down my face until I felt a finger wipe them away.

"Lolo what's wrong? Why are you crying?" I looked into her beautiful chocolate eyes. 'Im in love with you and I just want to take away every ounce of pain that you feel and spoil you like the princess you are.' of course I didn't say that. Fuck I look like.

"Im sorry did I wake you?" I sat up completely. I'm not sure if she was up the whole time or if my crying woke her. She answered my question with a quick shake of her head.

"You should really get some rest Mani." She gave me an 'are you serious' look. "Im sorry I don't feel like talking about it right now, ok? Can we just go to sleep." I gave her a peck on her forehead as I closed my eyes. Normani sighed, laying her head in the crook of my neck. I hugged her tight as if she would disappear.

I don't like shutting her out but I can't tell her. Not now. Not when she just got her heart ripped out by that bootleg ass beyonce. She doesn't need something like this to worry about. She needs her best friend.

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I woke up to my phone notification going off. Its probably Dinah. I don't want anything to do with her, not after what she did. I will never forgive her. I should've listened to Lauren. She warned me several times about her. I'm so stubborn.

The pain I was felling wasn't heartbreak. It was straight up betrayal. I fucking trusted her. Her bright smile and goofy ways made it easy. For awhile she made me forget the longing I felt. I needed a distraction from and she was a good one.

Even though she was my girlfriend I could never bring myself to see her as that. She was like a friend to me. A friend That had more privileges than others.

I just felt like she wasn't enough. I was missing something and I used her to feel that void but now that she's gone its bigger than ever. Our relationship was never healthy to be honest. I didn't love her and I'm sure she didn't love me. I mean, she confirmed that when she decided to go sleep with one of my close friends.

It's crazy that deep down I know exactly what I'm missing. I just can't bring myself to admitt it. I'm just lying to myself at this point but I can't lose her. It's better to have her as a friend then to not have her at all.

"Goodmorning Korri." I smiled at the nickname she used. I couldn't stand it when she started calling me that when we were younger but now I've grown to like it. It was different. Something she was only able to call me.

"Morning." My breath hitched as I realize how close our faces were. Looking down at her lips, I couldn't help but to suck my in between my teeth. She cleared her throat, getting off the bed. She grasped her jacket and car keys.

"I got to go. I'll be back later." She left without giving me a chance to protest. Why did She just up and leave like that? Did I do something wrong? My mind was buzzing with different reason as to why so left like that.

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"Open the fucking door." I stood there banging on her door. My anger had return this morning when I was at Nor's house.

"Who the fuck is ban--" she didn't get to finish her sentence because I punched her in the face. The shock expression soon disappered as she stared back at me with anger written over her face.

"You little bitch." Fuck her hands are big. Im pretty sure I got a hand print in my face now. I retaliated by tackling her. On our way down, she tried to grab on to something which she busted over my head. I rolled over in pain. Fuck that hurts.

Dinah was now on top of me throwing punches. I was able to block some of them but not enough. I tried to wiggle from up under her but it was no use. I grabbed her hair as I headbutted her. She fell back groaning in pain. I got up and wrapped my fingers around her neck.

"Stay away from Normani or I won't hesitate to kill you." With every syllable she received a punch. When I was done She was out cold. Limping to my car I sped off. I couldn't go back to Mani house with blood all over me so I went home.

After cleaning myself off I went back to her house. I stood in front of her door hesitating to knock. Gathering all of my courage I rapped me swollen fist against the wooden opening. Her light footsteps were heard as she approached the door. As she opened it, I quickly lowered my head. She stepped aside letting me in.

"Where did you run off to?" she sounded concerned. It made my heart jump.

"Uh I had to do something." My head was still down. Normani came closer to me. I felt her finger under my chin as she lifted it. She gasped after she saw my face.

"Lauren what the hell happened to you?"