In this four cornered room
I laid awake as I saw tiny particles of dust in the air
It was eerie but I felt safe
I was alone but I was complete
Complete
Complete because you left me
The pang in my heart
Has subsided
The waves that had crashed and destroyed my barriers
For so long that even my fingers couldn’t count how long
How long you have
Wrecked
Shattered
Ruined
Me
How long I stayed in the abyss
And all I can see is pitch-black
And I became a void
A human without a soul
A song without a tone
A traveler without a direction to go
I was lost, bewildered
Until I closed my eyes
And let myself drown
To everything that has been bothering me
To everything that has been hurting me
I was reborn
The pain left me
I was okay
I am okay
No
I
Am
Not
I am deceiving myself
I became numb
I felt so much
That I started
To feel nothing
I was longing for your love
But now
All I can hear is
The deafening silence
The poisonous memories
That flows through my brain
The smell of you
That lingers in my body
The touch of your flesh
In the insides of me
Are now nowhere to be found
All of them vanished
I stared myself at the mirror
And I cannot see a reflection of me
I am gone
Long gone
