Here comes that pain again settling in my heart,
weighing me down, tearing me apart.
It hurts so much i cant breath,
I need something, anything to relieve.
I wait till im on my own and let it all out,
letting tears fall with noones judgement to worry about.
I turn the lights off, i dont want to see my face,
Full of shame and disgrace.
I said i wouldent do it,
but the yearning wont quit.
Maybe just a scratch, a layer of skin,
but its so addictive with its small sting.
Before i know it, ive drawn blood,
Guilt and shame hits me like a flood.
I promised i wouldent,
i did when i shouldent.
Its getting harder to stop each time,
And to quit it'll be a climb.
But im not giving up, this is not the end for me.
I will find ways to bring myself up then maybe, one day, i'll be fully free..
(Um, awk. Just wanted to ask if anyone that has previously self harmed has any tips how to stop could you please mail me? thankyou so much x )
YOU ARE READING
The screams inside my head..
PoetryEveryone has a voice, a voice inside their head. It can be evil, it can be good or you may not hear it. I hear this voice, i hear it because it screams. It screams because its my only outlet to the pain..
