Alone

I Am Nothing...

Alone I stand, with the whole world against me. There is no one I can call out to... No one left that actually cares, so why bother?

This thought constantly ran through my mind. My life was nothing but worthless, and everyone around here always seemed to remind me of that fact. They took delight in my pain, and laughed gleefully as they tortured me daily.

They called me "Fag" or "Less than nothing" constantly, and each and every day it got worse.

My own mind turned against me, saying I can't do anything right. My 'friends' decided to stop hanging out with me... So, I really WAS alone...

The world seems so much darker when no one cares... It seems ready to swallow you up without a second glance...

So daily, my insides died. Slowly but surely wasting away into nothingness... I stopped eating, and I started doing drugs to escape reality. They worked, but only for a brief moment in time, then I had to go out and get more.

My life was wasting away, and there was nothing I wanted to do about it... I hated everything and everyone, deciding not to trust anything at all anymore.

I didn't know what I was doing anymore... I lost myself in my grief and pain, and the darkness surrounded me. I... I can't stand this pain anymore... I don't want to even live anymore!!!

I cry myself to sleep every night, and I wake up with tears still falling... This isn't life.... It's hell.

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A. E. N. This story doesn't reflect how I actually feel, so there isn't any need to worry! This story is just something I wanted to do to fight depression and bullying, so anything said in this story doesn't actually reflect anything I'm feeling at all.

I Love you guys, stay strong!
Skyy Host