Error Code: Dan Howell (Phan)

Eleven

Phil takes in a shaky breath before Dan even starts to speak. He tries to mentally and emotionally prepare himself for what he's about to hear. "Phil," at the first word he wants to cry, actually, he doesn't want to he feels the need to. He wants to cry away all the pain he's been feeling, cry away the feeling of not having done enough, cry away all the times he was mean to her just because it was what siblings do. Just cry, because crying felt good. "I miss you Phil, and I love you, so very very much." Phil covers his mouth, but not to conceal a gasp, but to hold back the loud sobs that want to spill.

"Carol I-"

"Shh, don't talk. Just listen, okay?" Phil nods eagerly. "I want you to get better. Not just for me, or our family, or the nice therapist Misty. Do it for you. Do it because it's better for your well being. Live a happy life, and give this Dan guy a shot because he is very attractive and really, really likes you. Okay?" Phil nods and even stifles a small laugh. "I love you little brother. Take care for me, yeah?"

"Yeah."

"Voice change, normal." Dan takes his hands of of Phil tears stained eyes. He doesn't say anything since he knows Phil needs 'comfort', something he's not very familiar with. Luckily, Dan doesn't have to make any moves because Phil makes them for him and the next thing Dan knows, he's making out with Phil Lester.

He's not quite sure how it happened, in the blink of an eye Phil had two fist fills of his shirt and he was kissing him passionately. Dan's eyes were wide open while Phil's were shut tightly as if it would keep his tears in his eyes. Dan's hands don't know where to put themselves and they just moved around in the air, wondering whether to place themselves on Phil's sides or on his neck. However, his beating heart makes the decision for him. After three beeps Dan pushes Phil away and takes deep steady breathes.

"I-I." Dan stutters, trying to get his breathing back in control. "I have three warning beeps until I have to reboot." Dan explains.

Phil nods and wipes his eyes of tears. "What even is rebooting?"

"Well, I don't h-have a real heart and it only has power for a year. Or until it beats to f-fast. Since its not real it can't handle those kinds of s-speeds." Dan explains, trying to take his eyes of Phil.

"That makes sense. I'm sorry for, um, that. What just happened I mean."

"Oh no please don't apologize!" Dan looks back up at him. "It was great. I had no idea what to do, but it was still great." Dan explains, a blush spreading across his face.

"How did you not know what to do? Haven't you seem romance movies and such?" Phil asks curiously.

"Well, yeah. But it was kind of unexpected and it was only my second kiss so." Dan admits. Phil laughs.

"You're so awkward. It's really cute." Dan blushes, not knowing how he should react to that.

"So uh, yeah. Those are my abilities I guess." Dan chuckles awkwardly and tries to look anywhere but at Phil who hasn't take his eyes off him since the kiss. It was starting to make Dan uncomfortable.

Phil doesn't say anything in reply, he just leans against the head board of his bed and lets out a loud breath as he rubs his chin in thought. He lets out a low hum as he looks at Dan who is still looking down at his coloubrightlyred duvet. Dan's eyes flicker up to meet Phil's then quickly look away. "Stop looking at me like that, it's making me nervous." Dan mumbles, his lips barely opening to let the words pass.

"Sorry, I'm just thinking." Phil crosses his arms.

"About what?" Dan looks up again, although he wishes he hadn't. Phil's gaze just feels like to much to handle.

"About this whole 'second chance' thing." Phil says, taking his back off the head rest to sit up straight. "Is that really what you want Dan? What we want?" He motions between the two of them with his hand.

"Wh-what do you mean?" Dan asks.

Phil leans forward and gently takes Dan's hand in his. "Well, I'm unstable. I've been in more therapy sessions then I'd like to admit, and I'm sort of like a ticking bomb, waiting for something to set me off. I ramble, say useless facts, flirt more than I'd like to admit, and over all not the type of person I'd think you'd want to hang out with. Then you're, well, in simpler terms you're pretty much a cyborg, Dan. You find all the nitty gritty information that no one wants to be known just because you can. You're also hard to read and don't emote that easily. Not to mention your hacking skills are amazing. I'd be surprised if you weren't a criminal-"

"Well I'm not a criminal so be surprised." Dan snaps, his hand slowly slipping from Phil's until he tightens his grip on Dan's hand.

"I didn't mean that Dan. But I guess what I'm trying to get at here is, do we really want to start something? Something between us?" Phil asks quietly, as if he's trying to find the answer for his question meant for Dan.

"Well, I've never done anything like this before." Dan admits.

"Is that a no?" Phil asks, his voice even quieter than before and his gaze has dropped to their hands.

"No, my heart has never beeped for a person before. You're special Phil, and I intend to always tell you that. I asked for this second chance because I wanted it, now that I have it I'm going to earn it and you are going to be in the front row while I do so. Alright?" Phil nods. Dan's hand moves up to Phil's chin and he runs two fingers under his chin to tilt his head up so he's looking at Dan. "I may not be experienced, which explains my lack of kissing knowledge and my not being good at touching the way couples do. But I'm going to try, and try and try. I'll take you on dates, kiss you, touch you, be with you. Do you hear me Phil Lester I am going to try."

The smile that spreads across Phil's is unexplainable. "I'm happy to hear that. Really happy." Dan can feel Phil's breath on his lips, he never really thought about it until now. His eyes flicker down to Phil's lips, he's never been good at making the first now. "If you want to kiss me, you might as well do it before my parents come home." Phil's parents weren't home. He was alone with Phil in his bedroom. He suddenly felt vulnerable, yet there was a certain thrill to it. Kissing Phil and having no one but them know it happened.

Dan nods slowly. He starts to lean in and tilts his head slightly to the right. The he pauses before moving his head back to where it was. He contemplates which approach he should go for. Dan tries to think fast when he notices that Phil had his lips puckered and ready for the kiss but his lips slowly went back to how they originally were before Dan started to move in. Dan then leans in again, only this time straight on, yet again he pauses and moves back, trying to think fast when he sees Phil's lips move back to their original position. Then he leans in yet again, this time tilting his head to the left, only to pause again.

"Oh my gosh Dan. Do you want some help?" Phil opens his eyes and his lips that were once puckered pull up into a toothy smile. Dan nods, his face red with embarrassment. Phil holds Dan's head with his hands so he can adjust it at will. "I want you to lean in and tilt your head to the right slightly." Dan nods. "Okay, then when our lips touch just follow my lead like a dance. Let the rhythm take control of you. Only open your mouth when or if you're ready. When we hear three beeps we'll pull apart or when we run out of breath. Which ever comes first." Phil explains. "I might as well warn you that the moments right before we kiss is going to feel like one of the most magical things you've ever experienced. Alright, go ahead." Dan leans in and tilts his head slightly to the right as Phil said. When there lips are close to touching it feels like time freezes. The gap between them is suddenly something he's aware of. Phil was right, it does feel magical.

However, when their lips touch it's even more magical. Dan feels a pull towards Phil and something in his just clicks. He feels the rhythm, the beat. He knows what to do. His hands fly into action, they first move to Phil's sides then move up to his neck, where they stay for the rest of the kiss.

This is it, Dan thinks, This is what I want.