I have never been so in love. Knowing he is not around makes my chest ache. As I wait till the next day I lay in bed with tears streaming down my face. I've always hate crying and I know his been gone for a few days but it hurts so deeply. Cuddling to a stuff bear I think of what to do. "Damn...what should I do....?" Getting up looking down at the ground. I sigh and go to my desk. "Maybe he will come back today..." I sit down and lean back. "I miss you puppy...." bored out of my mind I draw and draw and draw. "I can't get any good drawings done" yelling at myself. I look at the drawing I drew him and look at his computer. "Please come home soon..." I lay my head down and sigh with a tear in my eye "I love you so much...." I close my eyes and doze off. In my dream I see us together happy at first he looks down calls me annoying and walks away I scream at him not to leave but he vanished. I fall to my knees and cry all I could do was sit there. I feel a sharp pain "a-am I dying...?" I ask as I panicked. Blood dropped from my mouth in a puddle on the ground. Everything goes blurry as I fall on my side. "I-I'm sorry...." I say as my eyes close. I wake on the desk my nosebleed in my sleep. "D-Damn it.." I grab a tissue and held it to my nose blood made me weak and feel sick I always felt like I was dying.
Me being depressed I always deal with so much emotions wanting to sleep for a while or not having to deal with pain. I clean up and lay down and hug myself while I try to go to sleep only thinking to much to do so. Finally I start going to sleep.
