affected // j.b.

Half a heart

GUYS IM BACK IM SO SORRY I WAS IN NEW YORK THEN I HAD EXAMS BUT IM BACK I WILL TRY TO UPDATE LIKE 5 TIMES A DAY LOL I WISH BUT SERIOUSLY I WILL TRY IM SO SORRY

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JUSTIN'S POV

As I sit on my bed on my phone I scroll through Instagram, all those sluts and whores, I mean yea I go for that but it's just pathetic, the appointment is at 3 in the afternoon it's 10 in the morning now but I Figured I could bring her out to eat

I wait for the Knock on my door that signals Kendall is ready, I've actually been happy having her here it reminds me of how much I missed her, our first kiss on this bed, If I could undo her pregnancy I would it was a mistake I feel bad.

A smile tugs at my lips, I missed her but I didn't know that until now.

Vibrations catch me out of my day dream I check my phone, speaking of the devil, Taylor.

I pick up knowing if I don't she will kill me.

"Hey baby" she slurs, drunk obviously

"Hi" I stare down at my feet focusing on what she's trying to mumble

"You should come over" a seductive giggle comes out, even over the phone she turns me on damn. Yea I dislike her but that doesn't mean I don't find her hot I don't know what to say, or else she will tell

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KENDALL'S POV

I wear the sweats and shirt that Justin let me use along with some vans

I decide to curl my hair I mean soon I'm gonna be so big I'm not gonna wanna do any thing, then I apply some mascara and strawberry lip gloss my stomach starts to clamp up more than usual so bad I lean my head on the wall, keeping my eyes closed groaning in pain this is unusual

By the time The pain finishes, I check my phone 11:30, I walk out to Justin's room he's not there I check the rest of the rooms no where, I walk down stairs

I'm home alone where is he? I knew this would happen I'm such a fucking idiot I believed he would be nice? Drive me to the ultra sound I expected him to be by my side fuck.

I start feeling the pains again I kneel over I drop my phone I can't stand the pain it's unbearable it starts fading I perch myself up by relying on a bookshelf I pick my phone up tucking it in my pocket I don't know if I should walk or go in car I don't even have my own car so I guess walk it's only about 10 minutes away

I decide to grab a bite since it's only 1:00 and the appointment starts in 2 hours

I stop at the burger-king that is across the street from the doctors, I wait till it's my turn in line

"Hello mam what would you like to eat?" the lady smiles politely

"I would like a regular hamburger with ketchup, a small fry, and medium sprite" I beam at her small hands tapping the register

"That will be $5.34"

I nod in agreement I hand her the money, she hands me my tray and I thank her once I find a table in the corner I pick at my food wondering where Justin is and why he just left me there

By the time I'm finished with my meal it's 2:50 I have 10 minutes to get there it only takes about 5 to get there from here

Once I arrive at the doctors I sign all the paper work needed then patiently wait

"Ms. Hanson?" I look up to a old lady in her sixties maybe, with silver hair slicked back into a perfect bun, along with her puppy printed nurse uniform

I place down the magazine I was reading, she leads me into a small room guiding me to a small bed she takes my blood pressure, and the rest of stuff to make sure I'm healthy

"The doctor will be here soon" she promises with a bright smile then walks out leaving me in silence

Justin could be in here with me right now keeping me company, telling me it's gonna be okay, knowing him he would also complain on how long they're taking I giggle to myself but soon recover remembering he's the one who ditched me

"Hello Ms.Hanson" a lady with blonde hair, and beautiful blue eyes says

"Call me Kendall" I smile

"Hello Kendall so what are we here for today?" she asks

"Ultra sound" I say excitedly

"Ah nice congrats where's the lucky man?" she smiles

"At home he's sick" I lie how would it sound if I didn't have a fuck where he was? Like I was a slut..

"Oh I hope he feels better here lay down" once I lay on my back she lifts my shirt only to show my stomach then applies some cream, my stomach isn't huge so people are like 'oh she's pregnant' it kinda just looks like I've gained weight, so I'm not worried, for now.

"hmm I think I may have some bad news" she sighs

"What" I ask trying to turn my head to look at the screen

"The baby isn't breathing have you fallen or anything in the last 24 hours" she asks

Tears brim my eyes so that's it? The baby is gone? I know I'm just a teen but I finally would've had someone in my life who cares about me as much as I care about them, I think to have I fallen? My mother. Oh god. I thought I blocked my stomach

"I fell down the stairs" I lie once again

"I'm so sorry, have you been feeling any pains signaling the death" she asks

"That's what it was this morning twice I couldn't even stand up it was horrible" I frown at the memory

"I'm sorry again the fetus should come out with your waste within 12 hours" I nod slowly. It's gone. That little innocent child will never see the light

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As I walk back to the house I will now call 'home' until I find out otherwise what to do, I haven't talked to Chaz in a while

I pass by a park in Justin's neighbor hood I sit on the swing to call Chaz

"Hey Ken I miss youu" he picks up

"Haha hey Chaz" I try to chuckle but it turns into a choke

"Are you okay?" he asks

"Not really" few tears race down my cheek

"What's wrong? where are you?" he questions

"At Justin's house long story just please come over"

"Okay" he agrees

I start walking back to Justin's before Chaz gets there

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*knock* *knock*

I get up from the couch I open the door to Chaz.

I've missed him more than anything I hug him immediately them shut the door

"What's wrong" he sits across from me on the couch

"The baby didn't s-survive" tears brim my eyes

"Kens I'm so sorry where's Justin?" he asks

"I don't know" I answer honestly

"Hold on" he says scrolling through his phone, he's calling Justin oh.

"Yo bro I'm at your house come over" Chaz says nonchalant

"Okay see you then bye" he hangs up leaving the room silent

"So?" I ask

"He will be here in 2 minutes" he says

"I don't feel like seeing him" I say in disgust

"Sorry but you have to" Chaz teases

"Whatever" I roll my eyes but a smirk plays on my lips

I hear light knocks on the door

"Go get the door" I command

"Why not you" he groans standing

"Because he's your guest not mine I could care less if he was here or not" I remark knowing it's true

When Chaz opens the door I peek, Justin his shirtless, his hair is messy, and he smells of vodka

I can't take this.

Everybody lets me down

The one person who was gonna love me unconditionally isn't here

Justin will never change

Nobody will love me.

I race upstairs I search everywhere until I finally find the guest room which was easy to find because well it has my back pack in it

I slide down against the door crying harder than I ever have. Why me.

"Kendall come on get out" Chaz pounds on the door

"No" I pout sniffling

"Fine I will be waiting downstairs" he huffs I cry all the pain away, until there aren't any tears left

I've been in here for 3 hours, I wonder if Chaz is still here I feel bad

I check the mirror before I leave the room I tie my hair in a pony tail, then wipe away the mascara tears

I walk down the steps one by one, I hear Chaz's giggle, which it's nice to know he's still here

Justin and Chaz are on the couch watching hockey

"Kendalll" Chaz squeals

"Hey" I say lowly, I sit at the kitchen table that's right next to the living room so I could still talk to Chaz or watch the game

I wanna ask Justin where he was, why did he ditch me but now, is not the time.

"I gotta go dinners soon" Chaz sighs

Justin and Chaz do there weird handshake

Chaz gives me a tight hug, soon a enough me and Justin are left in silence

I stand up to go upstairs I don't have anything to wear thanks to him, it's already 6, he won't want to bring me anywhere anyways

"Hey Kendall" Justin calls out, i ignore him and keep walking up the steps

I hear his foot steps wonder behind me but I ignore them

"Why?" I ask

"Why what" he questions, he still sounds tipsy

"Why did you leave me here fucking alone I walked there, alone, I freaking had to go through the whole visit by myself and then I get bad news that my whole world has died do you know how hard it was to hear that the baby I was gonna raise, learn how to walk, play with is no longer on this world do you know how hard it was for me?" it all comes out at once, I'm caught off guard when Justin starts kissing me what.

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