Feelings

i wana die

I feel as if I should just die as if it would be a good thing if I did. Ivan so alone and confused and hurt. I'm always getting hurt when I put my trust into people even the tiniest bit they take it and make it into nothing into trash. Then I feel as if I'm nothing as if I'm worthless and that I'm being used. I feel as if I should just kill myself and be done with it. Yet that would solve nothing but I am sure that I would be in peace finally,but its saddening to know that I want to die. I can't stand to be in this world anymore. Its sad that the people I care for are the ones who made me feel this way. They don't notice or care and it makes it all so easy to want to end it all. The only thing stopping me is my body. Its the only thing keeping me from hurting myself because It won't allow me. It won't let me take a knife and slid it across my wrist. I have to find the right pills and take them to make all the pain go away, to be numb and sleep forever