in retrospect, being called someone's best friend should be wonderful, something that would make one smile so big, their eyes squinted.
that was not how he felt.
he felt nothing but sadness and longing.
he scolded himself daily on how quick the other person had wedged his way into his heart.
shouldn't catch feelings so quick, he told himself. you're only gonna hurt yourself.
he felt so connected to him, like the cheesy movies about true love, or the fanfictions about the soulmate tattoos; he felt like the other's name should be etched into his wrist, and his own on his.
he hated himself. he really did.
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jack loves mark: anyways,, sorry about disappearing,, > i just had a lot on my mind i didnt wanna burden jm sorry
mark loves jack: sean williaM you would never bother me
jack loves mark: dont Middle name me
mark loves jack: Sean William
jack loves mark: Mark Edward
mark loves sean william: Don't.
jack loves mark: what the FUCK > UR NAME STOP
mark loves sean william: :-)
jack loves mark edward: lil bitch
mark loves sean william mcloughlin: fuk u
jack loves mark edward: FOR GODSS AKE > thats so long
mark loves sean william mcloughlin: hm ur right
jack loves mark edward: i kno
mark loves swm: there! :-)
jack loves mark edward: fUFK > LIL BIT CH
mark loves swm: im so good
swm loves mef: rekt
mark loves swm: FUCKCK > hold on
swm loves mef: holding on
mef loves swm: there it matches better
swm loves mef: its perfect
mef loves swm: you're perfect
swm loves mef:
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mef loves swm: FUCKCKFNSG > UR SO CUTE STOP > UR EYES R SO PRETTY
swm loves mef: mARK > I WAS MSKING A JOKE I LOOK LIKR AN IDIOT
mef loves swm: SHUT UP NO U DONT > U ARE LITERALLY SO ADORABLE
swm loves mef: SOTP IM CRYING > MARK
mef loves swm: S EAN
swm loves mef: I LOVE YOU
mef loves swm: I LOVE YOU TOO
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what was yesterday? all that talk of falling for each other? play? banter?
that's not what it was to him. not at all.
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i love creating messes and twisting things dont u
who do U think's pov is the narrative stuff? jack? mark?
