Dear Love

Dear Love : 001

Shardena's POV

Shardena

Terrance

Something , something as simple as me hearing your name. Touch me , touch me in a place that I can't even explain . I really didint know back then , but right now I'm totally sure . Maybe I'm just one of your friends but I want to be just more..

All I can do is play that song over and over again . It just explains how I feel all the time. It's hard holding in feelings when you don't know how to express em . It's hard watching that person you like go with someone else or flirt with them. Yeah ik I'm easy with boys and shit I can't help though. They say when you never have that father figure around, You'll never know which man is right for you. Hey I guess that's why I am who I am

It's twelve o'clock am and I'm wasted and high asf. I'm walking these streets and a car pulls up next to me .

" hey ma you need a ride " the boy on the passenger side said

" no scrub " I said slurring my words cause you know

" are you sure? we'll make sure you get home " the boy said

" no....I'm..I'm...I'm good " I said looking drunk

" fine then " the boy said

I started walking again

" we'll just take you " the boy said

That's when two of the boys started to get out . I was drunk and high but I could run still . Thank god I wore flats .

I started to run and they started to run right behind me .

" come here bitch" one of the boys said running

" catch me dumb fuck !!!!" I said

I was pretty far from them . I turned a corner and someone grabbed me an pulled me into a corner covering my mouth.

" shhhh...I don't want them to hurt you " the person said whispering

I kept quiet and then the two boys ran past . We waited about two mins before we moved . After two mins past he took me to a car I guess it was his . It was a black and silver BMW with tinted windows .

" hey my best friend has a car like this " I said

The boy turned on the lights and it was him.....Terrance.

" Terrance !?!?. How'd you find me ?!" I said

" I was your ride to the party remember. We went together" he said to me

".......oohhhhh..yeahhhh!!! You where my ride "I said remembering

" an hour later you left and I couldn't find you so I searched and saw you . Luckily you came down the road I was parked on " he said

" I thought we was playing tag or some shit " I said laughing

" omg this is the problem " he yelled in frustration

" what is the problem ?" I asked yelling back

" you!!!....you always getting drunk and getting into some type of trouble !!!!!and the main one is you being a hoe !!!!!" He said realizing what he said was a mistake

"......." That there hit me right in the spot " drop me home " I said on the verge of tears

" ....shardena I didint mean it like that" he said Tryna touch me

"Well It came out that way.take me home " I said getting a little heated

" I'm sorry ba- shardena ple...." I cut him off

" TAKE ME THE FUCK HOME NOW !!!!!" I said yelling

" fine " he said putting the key in the ignition and driving down the street

Once I got home home I went into my room. I took a shower and put on some shorts and a tank top. I got into bed and cried all night. I mean you might be my best-friend and all but it's certain things best-friends don't say. Terrance knows my past and that I have a dead beat dad so he knew not to say that .

Next day

I woke up with a major head ache and saw that I had dried tear stains and make up all on my pillows and face . That when I realized my so called "best friend " called me a hoe last night . I might have been drunk, but I remember shit.

I woke up at 9:30......WAIT...9:30!!!. I rushed out my bed and did hygiene stuff. I walked out the bathroom went into my closet and got my black leather leggings and my light grey merlyin Monroe sweater and put them on. I slipped on my taxis my ex got for me and put on my jacket. I got my book bag and grabbed my phone and keys. I left out the house and got into my car and drove to school as quick as I can .

When I got to school I parked my car and locked my door and went inside. I got a tardy pass and walked into 2nd block . Jazz 3...

When I walked in mrs. Casey's class and every one was warming up .

Mrs.casey looked up to me an said" shardena your late . Why ?"

" because I over slept " I said

" well you should have set an alarm clock" she said

" well I forgot " I said getting a little attitude

"Okay. Well everyone's warming up. So dress out and hop in " she told me

I walked to the bathroom changed and then I took a look in the mirror . I thought to myself " am I really a hoe ? " . I never thought I'd be called a hoe in my life . If I really am one I want to Change and that's starting tommorow.

I dressed out and started to warm up

(After school)

I was walking to my car and I heard a familiar voice call my name

"Aye shardena" the voice called out for me

I turned around and saw Terrance . When I saw him I ran to my car with him chasing me. I got in my and locked it . He came up to my window and started banging.

" come on shardena" he said banging on my window "just give me a second" he said hanging his head

I saw water drops come down on my window and then I realized he was crying

He never cry's ever. not even for his g-ma's funereal .

I unlocked my doors and let him get in . When he got in I drove off.........

" you never cry tee." I said keeping my eyes on the road

"Yeah ik.......it's nothing " he said

I stopped the car and pulled over real quick

" hey!!!!!hey!!!!!woah!!" He said Tryna keep still

" cut the shit !!!! And tell me what's in your head!!!" I said looking at him

"You wouldn't understand " he said turning his head

I took his head and turned it to mines " look!!! I've known you for a long ass time and I understand you very well and if I can't understand this!!! Then try your best and make me!!!!!" I said yelling and holding his cheeks

There was about 18 minutes of silence and I heard three surprising words

" I love you " he said Lowly but to where I could hear him

"You what" I said looking at him surprisingly happy yet confused

Tbc........

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Sorry for the wait

Had writers block

But thanks to @brittabrat for writing this chapter for me.

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