It is 3:23 am.
Where i put myself to sleeping .
But all i did is reminiscing.
For a moment.
I need to feel how to be in peace.
Paralysed me for a while.
Please. Im sicked.
Theres too much thing in mind.
Memories,
Bad endings, happy tears and melodies.
Sometimes i was scared to closed my eyes. My eyes.
Im scared to sleep. The brain functioning too well at 3 am.
Im hurt. Pain. Crying didnt solve the messed too.
The fear came after reminiscing,
Of regretting.
The fear of forgetting.
Things and people.
That, should be remained. But it was decided by the fate.
Im not only full by insecurities.
Im also full by questions and concern.
Shut up mind.
I know memories are pain.
I just want a bright future. With you. Why is it so hard to love someone?
Maybe i was destined.
To be a lone.
Maybe it is to pay for what i did.
Because karma is a bitch.
Bitch got me.
Die is not the solution.
Either
Living, breath just make it harder.
How i wish.
To be
With you.
😪 x.
4;58am.
Till i left you.
Sorry is not enough
I know
But I'm sorry..
For me for being sorry
For being the real,
True,
Selfish me.
Im sorry..........
I didnt know what to do,
Its all too late..
Maybe,
I need to find what i need to have.
Its already infront of my eyes.
I cant let em go. Again. Anymore.
Not a wasted.
Its a regret i know i know
Its a regret..
And i promise, how hard it is i will stay no matter what..
Keeping you in the heart..
Even if it will be hurt as fuck.
I learned it from you. I wont give up..
Maybe i will keep waiting..
Till the end no one knows.
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