HanMan's Unpopular Gems

This Bottle Of Pills

This bottle of pills are the key to my freedom, the end to my pain

This bottle of pills are choice of ending the life lived in vain

This bottle of pills whispers, "its all right. i'll help put you at rest"

This bottle of pills is all it will take to release emotions long since repressed

This bottle of pills is the end, time to call it a night

This bottle of pills is empty, the lights grow dim, no fear, no need to put up a fight

Sleep...

Sleep forever and see that troubled mind cease

Sleep forever and see that life is calm and everything is at peace

Sleep forever and leave behind broken hearts and lost souls searching for a reason why

Sleep forever and let the world mourn and question, "why did they choose to die?"

Sleep forever in selfishness and leave the world torn and broken

Sleep forever in an endless abyss never to be seen, heard, or woken

A/N: This is the letter i wrote before i tried to commit suicide end of January of 2013

"To all who love me,

I'm sorry, that i wasn't strong enough. I wish i could have held on longer. I loved every minute spent with every one of you. I treasure every minute you spent trying to help bring me back up. But, i am lost and broken, and i will never be good enough, never be worthy enough of your love, of your care, of your help and compassion. I'm sorry for doing this, but the pain of feeling worthless, pointless and broken was too much to carry.  I love all of you, my family, my friends, my mentors, the people who made me laugh, made me smile, and made me happy on all those times i had nothing but sadness. Thank you for everything, that you've done. Thank you for what you gave me. I love you all, i will see you again someday.

Love Jordan"

A/N: I am not going to attempt suicide again for those concerned. Thank you all for caring i truly appreciate it. I do struggle with bipolar II so my mood goes through cycles and i try to sty balanced, some days are better than others. But i do struggle with these tendencies often and i do what i can to keep myself in check. Writing these poems helps alleviate that.