Give Me Love (Marina Diamandis and Lana Del Rey) A Larina Fanfiction

Chapter 9

Lana's POV

I woke up in a hospital.

I was alone.

Didn't shock me.

Marina was probably with her boyfriend, and I didn't have any other friends.

I just laid there, thinking about what I did wrong.

And I couldn't find anything. I loved her and treated her right, and she repays me by shattering my heart?

I grabbed the notebook on the bedside table.

I scribbled words, goodbye words, to say to Marina.

I wasn't going to give them to her yet.

I wanted to cherish her smile, and her eyes, for a little while longer, even if it meant I would shatter continuously.

She was worth it.

She will always be worth it.

And I will always love her.

I will always be there for her.

My love Marina.

A light knock on the door, snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Hey Lana." Derek said quietly.

"Hey." I breathed smiling.

"I heard about what happened." he said slowly sitting in the chair next to the bed.

"I know it sucks. I'm not going to tell you it's gonna get better, because its going to get worse, and it's going to hurt like hell. But you should know you can confide in me. " he said, taking a deep breath once he finished speaking.

I sighed, and fiddled with my fingers.

"I'm sorry." he said, placing a hand on my knee.

I looked up at his eyes.

They were full of sincerity and concern.

I nodded my head.

The lump in my throat made it impossible to speak.

"She told me to tell you she's sorry too.
She didn't want to cause you anymore pain Lana. She says she will leave you alone." he said, getting up and leaving the room.

"Derek." i croaked.

He spun his head.

"Thank you." I whispered.

"anytime beautiful." he said, winking.

He walked out the door, leaving me alone again.

I continued to scribble into the notepad.

A few nurses came to check on me, but I wanted to be left alone.

It's easier that way, no one can hurt you.

I wish I would've stuck with that path. Instead of talking to Marina, and buying her coffee and a dress.

And instead of tasting her lips, and feeling how it felt to have her body against mine.

Because it was so much easier. There was no pain, just emptiness.

I had always observed all the pain, and I had never felt it, but now that i had, I understood it.

I understood why people loved to fiercely, and why they couldn't cope when a loved one hurt them.

I just wish Marina could understand what I understand.