The making of Terase Nagisa

Say you do believe in powers within yourself? Or one day if u were given a choice to leap back time in exchange of your current life in reality, which will u choose? Why will u want so badly when u wished the original wish?

My life is a lie. Why I say so. Since birth, I witness adult fight, having the love of mother and losing it. Friends betraying and leaving me. Who am I? Why i am born for? What purpose I am here?

Will u take the chance to turn back time or erase your own existence and become someone else?

Since young, I been through stupid decision I made and done many wrong things with naïve thoughts. In first grade, my teacher compliment me that I was talkative and good with peers which I quickly promoted from a normal girl who did her work at fast speed, promoted to leader of her group and female class rep in school, having a loving mother and good friends from kindergarten.

But all this changed in the middle of grade 2 of primary school, drastic changes of home, grades and school that changes 180 degree of my life and personality. From a talkative girl to a quiet and cold lone girl with few friends she hang out at times in school and spent the rest in library started indulging towards books where it can take her out of reality and learning knowledge. Thus, she learns not to trust anyone fully and close the treasure box of her heart eternally with chains and started building up a mask and fake smile to deceive everyone. Yes, this was how she goes through her darkness moment but this not the end. She barely passed her elementary school final exam and got to a school where she believe she will start her new life but she was wrong and naïve. Due to her naïve, she was deceived again by the only friend she made in her year 1 and started her twist character, of course not one realised it but herself as she carefully raise it by feeling more negative feeling she harbour to anyone. But there is one angel who is here but is a fiction character in 2D. They were her life teacher that teach her the morals and friendship before anyone else, grades started bouncing up high where she is no longer at the bottom but the top which treatment is the same to her (no difference in where she stands but changes in which people targets her in academes standard) and classmates she got close to and become friends by same interest. But is where I decided to change this life story flow of writer u are reading now , to an illusion or I should say is her dream for this matter come to the reality. But unfortunately this is reality, only supernatural exists but no superpower to give to a mortal human Cuz it is an unchangeable fact which is able to change by making an art of it and born it with your creation. That one angel is Anime and Crayon Shin Chan is part of it. Whenever she had too much problems, she will always travel an hour plus ride to seaside and look at the scenery which she decided to run away once and having many thoughts including suicide thoughts. (I always wanted the freedom to do so when I was young.)

Oh, did I mentioned that she started writing vocabulary of suicide type in her English essay since grade 3 and got curious of all this, My how dreadful is children, their curiosity can get a child to know all this.

Back to the story, she will be staring at the sea and enjoying the cool breeze where at times she will give a big shout to vent out. She has friends where she will hang out with but this is just one of the days where she is alone at the seaside, wanting to vanish due to too much pressure and enough of living. Just this one day gave her a choice to do so; a traveller strolls at the seaside noticed her alone ,wanting to bring her to police station for lost child but notices something special like an aura out from her. As she approaches, the shoujo stood from her curling position and shouted loudly to the sea, her eyes is red and in despair as her scream is like shaman cries, painful enough like asking help to her out this miserably life of her, she had her uniform stuffed in her bag as she is wearing simple home clothes. This sparks the traveller eyes from a distance; shoujo didn't notice she was not alone.