A Look In The Window That Appears To Reflect

If

If you could hold me right now
Would you hold me the way you used to?
If you could brush my hair to the side, gently caressing the curves and falls of my skin,
Would you share that moment with me again?
If you could hold my hands in yours and promise everything will be alright, even when we knew the future was bleak,
Would you reassure me like you once did?
All these thoughts,
These questions.
All these if's and when's
Never to be determined.
Never intended to be answered, even when I already know the truth.
Yet they still cycle through my mind,
If I hurt myself again, painting my skin like I once did,
Would you still find it in yourself to love me as you had done before?
If I fall down the rabbit hole and slip under the tide of my tears,
Will you still give me the loving look I fondly recall?
If I fell apart while you held me,
Would you pull me closer, feeling your heartbeat alongside mine once more?
As the sky rains down upon us and as the world falls apart,
Will I be the one that holds us together?
Can I stay strong for you and stay by your side?
Though you have strength your mind makes you feel weak, can I still help you?
Will I one day not be what makes things better?
Will I be a wilt in your smile?
I will try my hardest to make you smile
I will continue to help you, no matter how far you push me away.
But as you feel so weakened,
I call to you to see I am not strong.
Forever I will stay weak knowing I cannot move on from your side
My arms still ache where the sharp brush once graced my skin,
And my heart still craves the crimson I once knew and loved.
I do not harm, you nor I any longer.
I want to see us fly above the world below.
I want our happiness to shine down to the people, bringing the light of a new day.
Even if the day came that fate would one day tear us apart.
I want us to be happy, together, and past this point of pain and strife.
I want to get better, the same as you
You walked me to a point in life that gave me happiness and good health,
So why couldn't I do that for you?
I keep my smile despite my pain and wear my heart on my sleeve, knowing that we would one day fall apart.
But in my heart? I know this was simply our fate.

Blite's quote of the day:
"Just keep moving forward and don't give a shit what anybody thinks. Do what you have to do for you."
~Johnny Depp~