high school (hopefully i don't die)

The night before

so as you can tell, it is the night before my first day at high school. i am low-key terrified.

nevermind. high-key.

i know i shouldn't be but i really just can't help it. i'm not so much "scared" but just...uneasy. i have no idea of what is yet to come. it's probably not gonna be any different from middle school and my mind is just overthinking like it always does but that is just my logical side. my other side of me who actually has somewhat of an idea of how the world works knows that my logical side is just a pussy.

it is currently 9:55 pm and it has still not sunken in yet. in less than 8 hours i will wake up at 5:30 am (which i am not too thrilled about if i may add) and put on my "edgy" clothes (a hipster t-shirt, ripped jeans, a flannel and a choker that my friend Beth gave me. At 6:15 i will walk out the door with my rainbow backpack filled with school supplies and lunch (probably with a sappy note from mom hidden in the lunch box. probably something that goes along the lines of "have a great first day of high school. i can't wait to hear all about it when you get home. love you. xoxo mom." disgusting.) at 6:37 my bus will pull up and i will try to sit alone but then be horribly mistaken because a few stops down the road i will have to scoot over and probably be squished.

i will probably have to reunite with a few faces i haven't missed seeing.

first off there is Tristan. he is a total fuckboy and wants me and Beth dead on the side of the road. why does he hate us? well because liz uploaded his nudes to instagram and we broke up him and his most recent ex girlfriend. no, we aren't dicks in general. only to him because he raped Beth's ex girlfriend.

Next up on the list is Kaden. he is one of my best friends brother. he picks on everyone constantly, gets iss at least once every 2 weeks, is the most popular person on my bus, and makes fun of the bus driver and other faculty, rather loudly. i do admit that he is funny and probably a caring person under his huge ego, but i haven't missed his constant yelling over summer.

last up on the list are Lola and Destiny, two Asian tenth graders who i use to be "friends" with in 7th grade before they left for high school. they were very distant from me but were close to one another. they always left me out of conversations and made plans without me...in front of me. also destiny hates me now because i may have accidentally cursed out her brother last year. in my defense he wasn't leaving me and my friend Alexis alone, and was being a huge dick, and i didn't know he was her brother.

after the horrid bus ride, we would pull into the school and i'd have to face one of the greatest battles known to man... HIGH SCHOOL i have no idea what it is going to be like but if it has constant musical numbers like my good pal Disney has told me, then i am out.