why'd you only call me when you're high? | leafycynical

what kinda bothers me

is that there's work (fanfiction) that i've made (like this one) that got a shitload of views

i'm not at all proud of this
in fact, i loathe this book to its entirety
i fuckin hate heathens too ugh

no, i won't delete either because i know you guys enjoyed/enjoy both but the point i want to make is that i have stories and works that im proud of creating that are so under appreciated and it just makes mE so-
idk what word to use
it bugs me rlly bad

like
i wish i could switch support to my other books like angel eyes
i'd be happy w that being popular than this one or heathens to be honest

this and heathens were so poorly written and unedited and they make me cringe so much
idk like everyone else has fucking great stories with a great amount of support and attention and they're proud but im sitting w my stories like missing / angel eyes, the books that i put much more time and effort into writing and i just sigh

idk man
like
it took around 15-20 minutes to write about a 200-300 word chapter

for the latest chapter of angel eyes,, it took me 2 hours to come up with around 900-1000 words

and im scared that if i put too much effort then it won't be as successful as ones such as this where i threw a sloppy pile of shit together and just slapped the plot as i went along

missing wasn't even supposed to exist at first, but i wanted a second shot at making this series much better and it didn't get as much support as this did and just
hhhhh

sorry if this sounds like im desperate for views or some shit i just wish i could trade this for things im more confident with