Incredimazable (OMG Girlz Lesbian)

Chapter 10

I felt Bahja's fingers tangle through my hair as she pulled my faces towards hers. I had so many thoughts in my head. Did I really wants this? Did she really want this? What will we be after this? Are we rushing it?

Oh shit.

I stopped right there and pulled back from out passionate kiss. We were rushing it. "Bahja." I breathed out sitting on the bed. "I can't do this."

She looked hurt for a second but then she composed herself and sat next to me. "What do you mean?" She asked.

"We're moving too fast. And I don't even know where I stand with Alexis and Desiree... If we do this, I want it to be for us when we're ready." I explained. I thought my words over and instantly felt like what I said did make any sense.

"You don't want me...?" Bahja asked looking down at her hands.

"No, no, no." I got up and cupped her face so she could look up at me. "I want you. More than anything in the world. I'm just not sure what do right now. I'm stuck between Alexis and Desiree and I know I should be with Alexis but she's moving away and I can't be with her without thinking about yo-" I stopped short, my eyes widened.

"Without thinking about... Me?" Bahja said slowly.

I sighed and nodded sitting next to her again. "I don't want you to become another Alexis or Desiree. I want you to be Bahja, my Bahja. My girlfriend. Not my fuck buddy or somebody who I don't even know where I stand with." I grabbed her hand rubbing my thumb on the back of hers. "Do you understand?" I asked.

She nodded and rested her head in the crook of my neck. "I understand."

"Good." I sighed then swallowed the lump in my throat. What I was about to say next would take some guts. "Because right now, I need you as my friend."

"Do you really think we can go back to normal after tonight?" She asked peeking up at me. Oh fuck, she looked so sexy like that.

"Not really, but I'd like to try. At least until I'm comfortable enough to come completely out the closet and be with you every way possible." I sent a small smile down to her.

"Alright." She perked up crossing her legs. "We need boundaries." Bahja grinned. "Holding hands is acceptable."

I nodded totally agreeing. "Right and this," I leaned in a pecked her cheek, "Is completely innocent."

"Right." She giggled. "And this," In a swift movement Bahja was on top of me with me pinned down on the bed. She leaned in a kissed from my earlobe down to the crook of my neck. "Is so not acceptable." She mumbled biting my neck. I moaned arching my back a bit.

Red lights went off in my head as my hands slid down to her ass. 'Come on Nique! Boundaries! GET. A. GRIP.' I roughly gripped her ass. 'Aw, not that type of grip!'

I felt her hands go under my shirt as she creased my stomach softly. I could feel my breath picking up. "Bahja." I tried to say sternly but it sounded more like a strained moan. "We have to stop."

"I'm just showing you what not to do." She replied as her hands squeezed my nipples. That did it for me, I let out a breathy moan.

Bahja shot up quickly and rolled over so she was next to me. I groaned and sat up. "Boo you tease." I muttered. 

She giggled and threw her arms around me. "You loved it. But seriously Nique," She sighed. "I agree with you. We should wait. I guess I was just a bit eager to know what sex with a girl was like. We both have a lot going on in our lives and we should wait until we're in love."

Too late for me then.

I slightly gasped. Where the hell did that come from? Did I love her? Yes. But was I in love with her? I found myself searching frantically for a answer.

"Nique, are you okay?" Bahja asked concerned. 

"Yeah," I lied. "I'm fine." I smiled. "Let's get some sleep. We have to meet Bre tomorrow." 

I couldn't sleep, as much as I tried. I kept thinking to myself about Bahja. 

Was I in love with her?

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The next morning, I was surprised to see Bahja's house was empty. I was siting in the living room drinking some juice checking my phone for the latest news. I had received a few text through out the night from a few people.

Roc: Hey, wussap? Haven't heard from you since the hospital....

I instantly felt guilty. I was avoiding him. I promised myself that the next time I saw him, I'd tell him the truth. I wasn't ready for that.

Desiree: Good morning babe :)

I ignored that one and went to Alexis'.

Alexis: Hey, moving next week ): 

My heart ached at that. I had to get as much time with her as possible. 

Bre: We're still shopping today, right?

I texted her back instantly.

Me: Most def. 

Bre: Girl, I sent that last night. It's too damn early, go back to bed

Me: No :P

Bre: -_-

I rolled my eyes. Breunna at six AM was not a Breunna I was fund of.

Me: ... ok fine ms. moody :P luv u

My phone chirped saying I had a new message. 

Bahja: Come back to bed.

I instantly smiled and went back upstairs to her room. I curled back into the covers. 

"Is cuddling over our boundaries?" Bahja mumbled. 

I smiled against my pillow and pilled her close to me losing myself in her sent. She smelled like heaven. I know I was corny, but she smelled marvelous. Like berries and... pie. 

"Are you smelling me?" Bahja laughed. 

"Maybe." I smiled.

She turned to me, watching me. I got lost in her eyes shocked to find them filled with so much affection. I knew mine mirrored hers as I felt my hand tighten around her waist. Fuck the boundaries, she was mine and always mine. 

Her lips found mine as we shared a passionate kiss, and for the moment everything was peaceful. 

'There's always peace before a storm.' I told myself. As soon as I'd thought it, someone gasped loudly causing us to jump apart and look at the person who stood at her door.

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HEY GUYS I'M SO SORRY! THINGS HAVE BEEN A LITTLE HECTIC LATELY BUT DAMN IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS I'M SUCH A BAD PERSON.

Anyways, I'm putting this story on hold. I'll try to update when I can but I have some things going on right now. Sorry to do this, but I can't actually keep up with this story at the moment.