I'm not what you think

Second thoughts

Charlie's dream:

I'm a week over due and I can't do it no more. I'm meant to be in labour giving birth to our third baby but my waters haven't broke.

The hospital said if anything happens then we have to go straight to the hospital.
"Marcus I can't do this no more." I started to cry.
"Hey it's ok." He said giving me a hug.
"Baby please don't cry. You will be fine." He said kissing my forehead.
"Why don't you go take a nice warm bath." Marcus suggested. He gave me a kiss and I went to the bathroom.

I put the water on to run a bath. I put my music on and got in the bath. I relaxed for about ten minutes and then got out.
I got changed into my pyjamas.
And that's when I felt my waters break.
"Oh my god." I tried to get down stairs and get Marcus.
I was breathing heavily.

When I got down stairs I went in the living room.
"Marcus."
"Yes babe."
"My waters have broke." I stayed quite calm. And then this massive shooting pain hit me.
"Aaaagh!" I shouted.
"Right come on let's get you sitting down. I'll ring up the hospital." He grabbed his phone.
"Shit! My phones dead. What about yours?"
"Dead."
He ran upstairs.
"Sydney is your phone charged?" He asked her quickly.
"Yeah why?" She asked
"Just pass it here get some towels."
"Ok."

Marcus ran down stairs and so did Sydney.
"Hi can I have an ambulance please... What do you mean all your drivers are on strike! Are you fucking seri...hello."
He looked at Sydney's phone and the line had been cut off.

"For gods sake. Right it looks like your having a home birth." Marcus said to me holding my hand.
"Sydney ring Zoë, Heidi and then tell your brother to get his ass home."
"Ok."

She went into the kitchen to ring them all up.
"Marcus I need to go to hospital. I can't do it here."
"The car has broken down and there is no other way to get you there. Look I'm so sorry babe but it will have to be here. Zoë will be here soon. I will get Sydney to ring your mum up." He said kissing my forehead.

"They are on there way. But I can't get hold of Lewis."
She said walking back in the living room.
"I'm going to kill your brother I swear to god. If he's smoking that weed again. I told him not to."
"Aaaagh!" The sharp pain hit me again.

Zoë, Alfie, Heidi and Natasha came through the front door.
"Oh my god Charlie." Zoë said dropping her bag.
"Zoë. I can't do this." I said crying.
"Right look at me sweetheart. You can do it and you will do it. I know it hurts but it's all worth the pain. You have done it twice before, just do it this last time." Zoë said holding my hand.
Marcus told the others to go in the kitchen with Sydney.

"Zoë, Marcus please stay with me."
"Hey we're not leaving your side ok." Marcus said grabbing hold of my hand.

"Right Charlie you need to start pushing the head is just there." Zoë said to me.
"No I can't." I started to cry again.
"Charlie what did I say. You will do it ok you are not giving up. You are one of the most bravest people I know. And if you give up now then you will be a bit of an idiot." Zoë said to me.

After her words of wisdom I decided to push.
"No I can't." I said in pain.
"Look at me babe. You can do it ok if you loved me and that baby you will do it for us." Marcus said kissing my hand.

About 3hours later I done it.

"You done it. You done it for the third time." Marcus said kissing my head.
Zoe put the baby in some towels.
"Here's you baby girl."
Zoë handed her to me.
"She's beautiful."
I gave the baby to Marcus and as He held her Zoë said.
"Marcus she is loosing a lot of blood. I don't know how to stop it."
"No please Charlie don't die on us." I heard Marcus. Everything was starting to blur.
"Zoë take the baby." He passed our daughter to Zoë.

"Charlie please, stay with me." He held my hand.
"Harley." I whispered.
"What?" He asked. Marcus started to cry.
"Her names Harley."
"No Charlie don't go."
"Marcus I love you and the kids make sure they know that. When I go make sure you look after them. We were good parents. You have been such a good dad to both of them. And you will be good with Harley. Just make sure you tell her everything."
"No Charlie don't say that." He gripped into my hand and started to shake.

"Where's the baby?" I asked Zoë.
"She's with Sydney. Charlie don't leave us please."

"I love you Marcus...."

End of dream.

Marcus PoV:
"Charlie. Wake up." I said trying to get her to wake up.
"Marcus." She said waking up.
"It's ok I'm here." I said giving her a hug.
"I can't do it."
"Do what babe?" I asked her.
"I can't have another baby. It will go wrong, I know it will." She said quietly.

"Hey you don't have to if you don't want to. I won't make you."  I said kissing her forehead.
It was disappointing to hear that she don't want another kid, but I won't make her do anything that she don't want to do. I am happy with 2 kids.
She looked at me.
"Your not annoyed at me are you."
"No of course I'm not. I wouldn't be annoyed at you for not wanting another kid. I like our family now but I just though it would be nice to have another kid running about, but if you don't want to I will never ever in a million years make you do it. I'm not that type of  person." I said kissing her neck.