The Guy She loved

Chapter 1: I like how it feels

I deleted his number. I wanted to act as if nothing ever happened.I wanted to get him out of me. Little i knew ..deleting a 10 digit number won't be enough ...what about the 10 million broken love particles struggling there way out of my heart. I didn't want to see his face. Ever ! It reminded me of all those times when my life was so much under my control.

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3 years back

I had never seen mayank till then. It was like 2 months we had been chatting but i hadn't seen him yet. Yes i had a great desire to see who he is and how he looks like when he told me that we had that eye contacts and he was sure that i Liked him too. Coming all this from an unknown guy was enough to make me want to see him. My eyes used to wander here and there ...almost everywhere in my college to catch a glimpse of him.

Back then I was in my first year ...pursuing engineering!

He used to see me daily. He did tell me everything about myself... what was i wearing.... what was i doing ....what was i doing with my hairs ...rolling my curls on my fingers ..adjusting my spectacles , trying to fit in the social life around me !! 

I had seen him in pictures.He didn't seem that handsome as i want guys to be ...the guys i date to be but I wanted to see this guy , not because of his looks maybe something else.

Curiosity.

I  wasn't much surprised by his compliments and one liners. It was normal ...it's made that way ..guys keeps on flattering girls and we blush !

Girls are made that way ! Receiving compliment from anyone makes a girl's cheek little more red !

So was i ...!

The way he flirted with me was different... much different from other guys. He semed mature ! I kinna liked the way he used to notice me. It's feels gkod if someone notices you

"Maybe he were a Casanova ...or not ..yes he was ...or else why would he notice me so much ! maybe i am really this beautiful... he made me question my looks ..he made me think about myself and it off course made me feel pretty and proud "

20 February, 2014
IN COLLEGE

Oh, her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shinin'
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

" Just the way you are " was on repeat mode and I was standing outside my classroom ...trying to fit in my social life ..join the group conversarions but naah ! I just couldn't
I don't know how some girls just bump into you and your life as if your life is a an open book and they all are here for getting some kind of degree ! 

I am a dreamer. A total social misfit.

I was trying to concentrate what's going on around me juat then a guy passed from my sight
I was just trying to absorb that it was him and then suddenly he again passed from my sight. He was in such a hurry ...pretending that he was in hurry but he wasn't.

Finally i saw him !

I didn't feel like he was man of my dreams.he was tall . Really tall. Dark complexion. I couldn't notice his eyes. It was just his specs which i saw.

I saw you. I texted him at night
Aha me too ;) .he said
Nothing new .i said

Life remained as it was.nothing changed much except that fact that i had seen him ! I didn't find him attractive, yes i was disappointed  but it was all cool then  as he was just a friend ...with him i used to chat i wish he stayed that friend who never mattered.

I saw him again the very next day. He looked different. He was wearing neon shoes .brownpants and green shirt. He used to tell me he loves my cheekbones.

By that time he never used to insisted on meeting me. We were just involved in a unconditional friendship. We used to share part of pur lives. i m not sure ahout him. He was a scorpio ...he really was ... i could never make out what was goomg on in his mind  . He was unpredictable. Gradually it became my daily routine totalk to him. Just talk ...never thought about his intentions if there were any.

6 months passed. Now i knew about his exes , i knew he was a chain smoker but ut didn't bother me i had nothing to do with him. It was his life. It was September. The great September 2014 which changed alot in my lifr.

Navratri ! A great festival of india ...and living in Gujarat ...how could we not be a part of it !

As i entered the ground ..where everyone was dancing but yet guys managed to see  girls entering the ground ...with heavy makeup ...long ghaghras ...

Mayank wasn't going to come. I knew he had no interest in social gatherings unless its about some of his wild friends getting drunk ...dance like no one's watching and then get a  hangover which lasts for a week !

As soon as i entered the ground one by one my friends started getting disappeared in garba groups leaving me and Shruti alone!
Shruti like me ..didn't liked dancing too so now it was two of us ...standing in a corner ..commenting on girl's dresses ,makeups , hairstyles , their hot exes and our single lives !

Damn he can't stop stating at you ...shruti pointed towards a guy

Fair complexion ,Long hairs covering ¼th part of his eyes , batman tee shirt ,batman wrist band ,black shoes and he looked so cute !

Batman fanboy !

Yes this guy is staring at me ...

Are you sure he's staring at me ? I asked like a cute little innocent girl who just won some free chocolate cupckaes

Offcourse he is! Look at him ...he likes you ... shruti passed her judgement

"He's cute" is all what i could say with

Yes he does ! Why would he stare so much if not
I was so positive !
And we again caught him staring at me!

With the thought of such a cute guy staring at me i couldn't sleep ! That feeling gave me goosebumps

I need to know him ! I should know him !! We should know each other