Things

Normal

Normal, most people define normal as a standard, a place the be, a goal to reach, how we're all 'supposed' to be.

I always thought of normal as fake, it was never real everyone is unique so there can't be a standard there can be fake.

But recently I've started to see it differently.

So when I was 8 or 9. I hit puberty, we all do it shut up. In this time I suddenly started growing up. I had always be talk for my age but this was getting ridiculous.

The thing is, you know that weird stage of early puberty where everything is about you and there are no insecurities and you think you are grown up when really you're a spoilt brat in a teenagers body? Yeah that happened when I was nine. Which means at the age of 10-11 when others my age started hitting that age, I was insecure.

I was always confident about things. I would come to my own conclusions and ideas very quickly. I knew things and was never afraid to speak my mind. If bullying is anything to go by I was never interested in following a trend.

People compliment me about how 'I didn't realise that until I was 20!' and 'I was way older than you when I noticed that' and the deadly 'NO WAY THAT YOUNG??1!1?!?1?1??1?'

I never want to be stereotypical, I don't want to be annoying and ignorant. I just, want to be a dumb teenage girl when everyone else is one. Because honestly normal is not being the same. Its a lot of people being similar.

And right now. That's what I want most.