Papermate

nothing without you

Everything happens for a reason, with every bad thing comes a good thing. At least that's what mum always tells me, but how could any good come out of your death? I know you screwed up but I was in love with you, I would have forgiven you. You didn't deserve to die.... it should have been me. Not you. I should have died that night not you. You had so much to live for where as me on the other hand, did not. You were far to young to die. Why did you have to go? Why, just why? I'm nothing without you. I miss you so much... I miss the way you would hug me from behind and tell me you love me, the way you called me your beautiful princess, how you would hold my hand so tight as if i could disappear at any given moment, but most of all I miss your voice. Hearing your voice always put a smile on my face. I know you won't answer the phone because you're not here but I guess I call just so I can hear your voice but I also stupidly have a little hope that maybe just maybe one day you might answer....... If you're up there in heaven, just know I will always love you baby.
-yours truly,
Ash:)