Before You, I Serve Nothing.

I looked up at the ceiling of my room. Why do all guys have to be such assholes, I say to myself. I was emotionally traumatized about the break-up between me and Rob Corkran. The sad thing was is that I always there for him, even sometimes more then a girlfriend--but as a bestfriend. I could go to him for anything, knowing he wouldn't judge me, and still be in love with me. This feeling always made me feel like someone was there. I sighed loudly. 

I looked at the time on my phone, 4:30 pm. "UGH!"  I say as I plop down on my bed, exhausted. My phone rang and vibrated, I looked at the name, Jesse.

"Hey Jes." I say into the phone loudly.

"Me and the guys are coming over, we heard what happened. Be there in ten." and he hung up like that. 

As much as I loved Rob, I knew I would always have a special place in my heart for these guys. I should start giving them more credit for always being there for me. Living with an older sister alone was tough, and when my parents split, we went on our own. My sister was 20, already had a master's in college because she was that smart. I know, I'm 18 and I can't do anything. -- oh well. 

I heard a knock on my bedroom door, and all the boys bombarded my room. Jesse, Justin, Kellin, Gabe and Jack all fell on top of me. "CASEEEEYYYYYYYYYYY." 

"Guys-" I said stuttering, "I can't breathe!" I pushed them off one by one. I never knew I could be this strong. It was quite funny actually. 

"I've brought chinese food, and have brought your favorite game as well. " Kellin said holding up Spyro, the magical dragon. 

"Oh my god, you are the best." I kissed Kellin on his cheek and plugged in the game system.  From the corner of my eye, I saw Kellin blush slightly. I never really took note of it though because he always had a flush on his cheeks around me. I slid the video game into the slot and grabbed a controller. 

We all took our perferred Chinese food in to-go containers. I had General Tso with pork fried rice, (my favorite) and Kellin had the same. The rest of the guys had chicken and brocolli. 

"You guys are perfect, I swear." I said inhaling a spoonful of rice.

"Casey, you're my bestfriend, come on." They all said. They all said kind of sad and ashamed that I would think they weren't. I don't know, they were weird. 

Kellin excused himself and got up. Everyone figured he was going to the bathroom and I continued playing with Justin and defending my title as Dragon Champion, we so call it.

"Casey, we know this can be an upsetting time for you, but you're one of us. You will always be. We're here for you through everything and everything." Everyone put their pinky in the middle of the bed, "Pinky promise!" 

"I know guys! Don't need to tell me twice." I put my chestnut brown hair up into a ponytail and leave it there. I probably looked like a clown or a raccoon with all the makeup I had before and all the times I cried hysterically throughout the day.

Kellin came back smiling like a fool. "What?" I asked, due to his vibrant attitude.

"Nothing, Caseycakes." Kellin smiled and my stomach felt butterflies. 

Ever since Kellin saved me from suicide, I could never get over how perfect he was. I popped pills after pills, medicine after medicine, cut after cut, just because Rob called me nothing. He spat it. Not even said, but spat.

Kellin, in my opinion, I knew someone like him would never fall for me though. I wasn't his type. He liked scene bitches who looked like they had a fucking unicorn shit on their head. And I was just normal Casey. Although, the nicknames he gave me were extraordinary and perfect. I always, I GUESS, kind of had a thing for Kellin. But like I said, I look at me, then him. There is not one thing that I could find him being attracted to me. We were quite the cuddle buddies though(; . 

Kellin walked over to Casey and put an arm around her. Casey dug her head into his chest. "How are you holding up?" he whispered quietly into her ear. No one really paid any attention to them. They were all to interested in talking, eating, and playing the video game. 

"I could be better." she said, then thought about it and found out it was a lie, I whispered softly, "Who the fuck am I kidding? I'm a mess."

All you could see on his face was sorrow and hurt. Casey, stop thinking this. You're perfect. There is no reason to think these thoughts." He kissed me on my forehead. 

"He doesn't deserve m-"

"NO NO NO NO NO." Kellin stopped me by holding his finger up to my lips. "You don't deserve him." 

I just shook my head. There is nothing I could possibly do to change his might. He would fight to the ends of the Earth just to get his opinion heard. I layed down, and so did Kellin. We were still cuddling. I turned to Kellin, and he turned to me. "I'm so tired," I say to him softly and yawn. 

He took my hair out of my pony-tail holder and let the hair fall by my face. He rubbed my face with his finger and kissed my forehead. "Go to sleep, beautiful." 

Okay. I really liked Kellin. Who was I kidding. What guy would do this? Not every guy is like this, most are assholes that just push you to the side. I could tell that Kellin actually cared for me.. 

"Only for you." I muttered and closed my eyes. I turn around and I just had noticed that Gabe, Jack, and Jesse all left, with there food and the game system. Kellin still stayed. 

I got under my covers and Kellin did as well. We got into the same position and he was moving his thumb back and forth against my cheek, once again. "Casey, you don't deserve all the hurt you get." 

"Kellin, it's whatever, I'm fine now." I move closer to Kellin, feeling his intense body heat against mine. He kissed the top of my head. "Go to bed, Caseycakes."

I moved my finger along his tattoo, "Before you, I serve nothing." I traced it lightly and delicately before I fell asleep in his arms. 

Maybe I was starting to get mroe feelings for Kellin, just maybe.