It Started With A Text

11

Bea's POV

For days, I reflected sa usapan namin ni Kuya nung isang araw. Can I even continue this? Kaya ko pa ba 'to? Ang bilis ko atang mahulog. But, I don't regret meeting her.

Meeting her was one of the best thing na nangyari saaking. I made a friend. Tapos sa text pa! Oh diba? #FriendshipGoals

I've been thinking about telling Jhoana about my feelings pero natatakot ako. Natatakot akong ma-reject, ma friendzoned, masaktan. Ayaw kong mawala siya.

How long can I keep this up?

Wala akong ka laban laban. May boyfriend siya. Siguro rin naman matagal na silang may relasyon. Eh kami? Wala pang 5 months. And bestfriend lang ang tingin niya saakin. Why does the world have to be so cruel?

Screw you, Cupid!

Pero gusto ko maging honest sakanya. I want to make this clear. I'm just gonna tell her lang. Okay, Bea. You got this. Tell her and done na lahat. Maybe mag fade lang din yan. Crush lang yan.

I unlocked my iPhone tapos opened my message app.

I hovered my fingers over her name. Nag de-debate pa ata ang muscles ko. Nakaka-kaba every second na hinahayaan kong lumipas. Am I really doing this?

Take the risk, Bea.

How am I going to tell her though? I started typing,

"I really like you."

Too forward.

"Uy I like you pala."

No, parang joke lang.

"Hi crush."

Yuck

"Lol is it weird that I have feelings for you?"

The latter option that I wrote made me shiver. Parang gusto ko ata na iwasan niya ako kung ganun. I don't know how long I was staring at my phone.

I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

I sigh.

I can't do this. Even if you give me a million to do this. 'Di ko kaya. I'm scared of rejection. I think everybody is afraid naman eh.

I remembered what Kuya adviced me to do; Confess ko raw sakanya and brace myself. A very good advice Kuya gave me, honestly. Note my sarcasm.

Easy for him to say eh, di kaya siya yung may feelings para sa bestfriend niya.

But nonetheless, I have this very strong urge to say it. One thing I really suck at is hiding feelings. I'm the type of person that shows feelings through action eh. Action speaks louder than words, diba?

Pero how can I tell her my feeling indirectly kung sa text lang naman rin kami nag co-communicate?

Hays. Feelings are so magulo. Kaya kayo, catch pokemons na lang. Wag na feelings, okay?

After of what-maybe-an-hour of debating with myself and overthinking, inunahan ko na inner self ko. I told her my feelings in the most-safest way possible. Superlative intended.

I can't even count on how many times I've proofread the message before I sent it. Crucial ito eh. One mistake lang, goodbye Philippines na.

For a long time, I finally locked my phone and exhaled.

The only thing I can do now is wait and hope for the best because sooner or later, nothing's gonna be the same anymore.

🌻💛🌻💛🌻

'Wassup, fam?

1 more chapter na lang. Woot. But I'm still stuck parin sa last chapter nito. I'm kinda lost kung paano ko i-end with a boom or with a bam 😂

Anyway, I've been dropping hints and adumberations for you guys to solve 😉

I'd also would want to give you, peeps, a huge brofist for the 1k reads! Woah. Surreal. I hope it will be the same for the next book 😊😊

Dito lang muna, next time na ang long message. LOL.

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