Shattered

One: Conjuring the Old Memoirs

"I wish somebody would have told me babe ,

Some day these will be the good old days

 All the love you won't forget 

And all these reckless nights you won't regret 

Someday soon your whole life's gonna change 

You'll miss the magic of these good old days. "

-Macklemore ft. Kesha; Good Old Days

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Today is the day. That day when everything Mia has kept in dark for the past three years will come back to her. She doesn't know this. She doesn't need to. She has to find out. And she will, when the exact time comes.

She has been away from all. For past three years. Isolated herself form all. Lived alone. Forgotten her bubbly, chirpy, happy-go-lucky self. She is alive on the inside, just for the sake of her parents, who showered their love upon her like anything. But alas, they are no more present with her in person, just in memories. She wishes that they should have not been taken away from her. They were the only hope she had when she got home that dreadful night. But fate was too cruel with her. It took away everything from her. Every single thing. Her happiness too.

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Mia's PoV:

I am on a bed, sleeping peacefully. The lights are off. The door is closed. I turn in my sleep, trying to get a better position. But somewhere, in the middle I jolt awake. I hear some whispering. Someone touches my forehead. Kisses my head and holds my hand. The side of the bed dips, someone sits down.

I open my eyes. With my free hand I switch on the lamp on the side table.

I see my mom and dad. Mom is crouched on the floor holding my hand, dad is seated on the bed. They are looking pale.

"Mom, dad, what happened?"

"Nothing, sweety. We are leaving." Mom replies.

"What? Where? When will you be back?"

"We don't know where, but, we won't be coming back. We are going forever." Daddy says. I look at them, mom has tears in her eyes, dad too.

"No, it can't be, please don't leave me. What will I do without you both?" I ask, all things getting to me. 

"Dear, you have to let people go. Everyone who's there in your life is meant to be in your journey, but not all of them are meant to stay till the end." Mom says, getting up.

Dad gets up and kisses my forehead, whispers, "Be brave, my girl. We'll always be there with you. In there," and points to my heart. Then he turns and goes toward mom and they stand together, holding their hands. Vanishing slowly, into white mist.

"WAIT!!" I yell. But they are long gone.

I open my eyes, and see my roommate, hunched over my face.

"What happened? Again? Vanishing?" Lara, asks. I simply nod, very well aware of the fact that I'll break down if I open my mouth.

I get up and go towards my bathroom. I take a look at my face. Nothing's unusual. It's just my tear stricken face, a very nice hairy nest. My eyes are red and are puffed up. I sigh and brush my teeth. Letting all the dark thoughts take over my mind.

What would have happened if I had done things a bit differently? What would have happened if I had insisted of them staying at home? What if I hadn't gone to see Nick? What if, what if...

That's the routine of my day. Wake up with a nightmare, brush my teeth while asking myself unanswerable questions. And wishing that I would have done things differently.

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Today, the day has come. My birthday, and I'm at their grave. My parent's grave. I'm turning 20 today. But tomorrow, it'll be four years of their death. Four years of staying in grief, in pain and nothing but negative emotions. Four years of misery. Four years of having to live alone, isolated. Four years of forgetting one's true self.

I don't even know who I am anymore.

Whenever I look at photographs, I see me. The real me; bubbly, chirpy, fun-filled, and most importantly, happy and with friends and family. With parents.
When I look at myself in the mirror all I see is, sadness. In these four years, I have not only forgotten myself, as well as I have run away from everything. Every single thing.

I ran away from, Emily, my best friend. Who was my rock when I was there, back home. When I was depressed and wanted to kill myself. I left her, alone, without even one word. Not even a good bye. I left all those, who were my second family. Three years ago I ran away from that place. After having completed my 10grade.

That place held a lot of good memories. Held a lot of sin. It had a lot of proud moments. Had a lot of disheartening moments. Most importantly, it had my past. My dark past. And that was the day I was terrified for. I can't live with those. But deep inside I know that, someday I will have too. But I just wish that this someday isn't today.

"I miss you both!" I say and get up. I make my way toward my college. My mom and dad wanted me to become a lawyer. And that I will become.

I have reached my college, and now I try to get into the cafeteria. Thinking about what Em thought me. I still remember what she said:

"It sucks, doesn't it? Feeling like you're not good enough! It does. I know you don't want to face reality. I get that. But do this at least for those who would have wanted you to. Your mom and dad wanted you to become a lawyer? Right? Get up and become one. Then we'll see what fate does. That's the moment when you can actually show your finger to fate. 'I am better than you!' Get up girl. Don't let my speech go for a six!!"

Thinking of Em, always brings a smile to my face. Be it a small one.

And then I did as she said. Got up. Now here I am. But now, the thing is if Em, ever finds out where I am then she will—

Slap me right across the face. Ow, someone actually did that; what even??

And that happened for real. My cheek sting. My jaw hurts. What no one has ever done, this person has. I feel angry. I look up at that person. My anger instantly fading away and being replaced by shock.

It's... it's... her. Emily. The Angry Emily.

I'm in trouble. Shit

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Hey guys!!! So that's the actress that plays Mia, isn't she cute?

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