Gone and Forgotten

Tonight is the Night..

I get a strange feeling,

it comes from deep inside.

I get all mad and angry,

wanting to go and hide.

My doctor calls it depression,

my dad says it's just me.

But the thoughts and feelings i have,

no one will ever be able to see.

Some say I'm psycho,

some say I'm just weird.

It's like I'm a different person,

and the old me just disappeared.

I get really edgy,

I want to commit suicide real bad.

Then I get a headache,

followed by feeling sad.

I wish I could get help,

I wish it would go away.

Maybe if I keep praying real hard,

it will some day.

I try really hard,      

people don't understand.

I let my life slip through,

like the sand in my hand.      

I'll lay down in bed,

and close my eyes,

Take a deep breath,

and dream about broken butterflies.

Silver metal,

it shines so bright,

against my skin,

it feels so right.

I watch my blood flow,

slowly trickling down,

a smile on my face,

hoping I'll drown.

The reflection of my memories

shine against my tears,

holding back my urge to scream

as I bleed out all my fears.

I can't take it anymore,

I feel so alone.

It's to much for me

to survive on my own.

The hurt I can't handle

overflows with a knife,

Tonight is the night,

I will give up on my life.