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Chapter 2

A/N  Hey all! Second chapter is here! I don't own Twilight or any of its character but the plot is mine! Thanks for reading, please comment and like to keep me going! 😘

Chapter 2-

    Thank the heavens biology wasn't my first class, instead, I had history class, which was a bore but luckily, an easy A. I needed time to think, without Edward breathing down my neck, like in biology. As the teacher droned on and on about the French Revolution, (or was it American?) my mind wandered.

I thought of Emmet and Alice, and how heartbroken they would be if I broke up with Edward. I loved the Cullen's like family, and in the back of my mind I had a feeling that if I broke up with Edward, it would be hard to go to their house, to sit with them at lunch.
     It wouldn't be the same.

  I also knew that Edward and I didn't click. I no longer felt sparks, I no longer shined in his presence. Quite the opposite really, I felt like I censored myself. I didn't speak my mind, dress how I wished. I felt like the stupidest one in the room when he was in it.

And yes, these perfect vampires are smarter than myself. They have centuries on me and my 18 years but still. Still, I should not feel so alone and just down. With Edward I felt blah. Boring. If he was truly my 'soul mate', shouldn't he want to change me, to kiss me? Want to be with me and have me speak my mind? Want me to dress how I liked?

I sighed. I couldn't leave him, I treasured the bonds I had with his-no, our family too much. I just hoped that I wouldn't go to far.

Imagine the day I walk down the aisle, carrying a bouquet of roses, dressed in white, and looking straight ahead at I man I didn't love. Ridiculous, I know. I sighed again, itching to leave the classroom. I slumped onto my desk, resting my chin in my hands and felt very depressed with myself.

    "Miss Swan? Is there something you'd like to share with the class?" Mr. Rogers asked, raising his eyebrows.

"No, Mr. Rogers." I answered, a pink blush settling on my cheeks. He gave me a nod and the entire class turned to look at me and I wished a hole would form and swallow me right up.

   "If so, class is dismissed right about now!" He said, glancing at his watch.
The bell rung and we all hastily left the room, practically bored to tears by the long lectures we endured every day in his classroom.

Next was Spanish and then math. Eventually lunch rolled around and I sat down next to Alice and and Emmet. They were all chattering and I couldn't help but feel isolated among them. Alice threw me a smile once in a while, and Emmet nudged me into the conversation a few times. Other than that, I was silent and felt Edwards eyes burning holes where he stared at my face. Eventually, he spoke to me.

   "Bella," Edward said, "can we talk for a minute?" I desperately wanted to say no but Edward had other plans.

He stood up without waiting for my reply and tugged me off to the hallway. It was empty and felt very large with no one bustling around. Edward looks at me, his eyes dark. His chest is out and his shoulders are back, making him seem taller. I feel small and I claustrophobic in the large hallway.

I felt the walls closing in the longer Edward stared at me. After a solid two minutes of silence, Edward spoke.
   "Bella, you are being rude." I gaped at him. Seriously? "You haven't said one word today at all and I find it obnoxious." I find your attitude obnoxious!
"Edward, I do not have to speak if I don't wish to. I understand you are upset that I am talking much today I'm just not....feeling well."

Liar alert! Liar alert! Why are you making excuses for this douchebag? It doesn't matter why you aren't talking, you don't have to do anything you don't want to! Still, I tried my best to look sickly for him. He must have bought it because his eyes softened and his tense posture relaxed.

   "Oh Bella, why didn't you say anything? Do want me to phone Carlisle and he can check you up?" I forced a weak smile.

"No, it's just a headache and such. It's no need to bother Carlisle." I answered. Please believe me, I begged inwardly. He kissed my forehead and I felt his smile. I shuddered in revulsion but stood still.
  "What a selfless little lamb you are, my Bella."

Anger bubbled with him, he had no right to call me his.
And why the fück is my supposed boyfriend calling me a lamb? I understand he is stronger than me, but I'm not weak, he is just supernaturally strong. In fact, I'm tougher than I look!

My dad used to be a dåmn good police chief and demanded I took self defense classes. I am not a meek little lamb, and I do not appreciate being called one. I'm not property either. I belong to no one! I'm not his Bella! I am done letting Edward push me around and until he gets that through his head things are going to be tense.

I was about to open my mouth to say something but suddenly, Alice bounded in, all smiles and energy. She ignored the obvious tension and continued to smile.
"There you two are! Come on lovebirds!" She squealed and bounded back to the cafeteria. Edward smiled but it was bitter, as if he knew what I was thinking and he led me back to the table and I couldn't help but feel like a dog on a leash, being led back to its masters side. This time, Edward strategically arranged himself so I was sitting next to him. He held my hand and it took much of my self control not to take it back and place far away from his own.

I still cannot believe how he just confronted me like that. He is not my father and has no place telling me that I'm being rude! He was being rude! Moreover, I cannot believe that I lied to him rather than telling him to shove off. I actually lied, as if I was doing anything wrong. I wanted to rip my hair out, this was getting ridiculous. I needed time. Alone. More importantly, without Edward.
  "Bella, would you like to come over today after school?" Alice asked me, flashing me her pearly whites. Cullen's or Charlie? Let's see alcoholic father with no sense of time and is probably sleeping or Cullen's?
  "Ummm actually....." I started but before I could finish,
      "She would love to." Edward answered smoothly, squeezing my hand rougher than normal.
  "Wonderful!" Alice clapped her hands together, looking as excited as a toddler with a toy. I scowled. How dare he answer for me? I almost refuted him, but Alice's joyful expression stopped me in my tracks so I grit my teeth and smiled.
  "I would love to."
So much for that alone time.

I felt like my eyes had been opened now. I saw all of Edward's flaws and hell, there were a lot! No one is perfect, but Edward is downright annoying. He keeps giving me his lopsided smile that used to make my tummy flutter with butterflies.
And it still does.

It does!

Honestly.

With killer bats that is!

He is irritating and steps across the line too much. He is becoming the father figure I used have. Congratulations Edward, I see you as an over protective parent with privacy issues. Good job boyfriend! Not. He pisses me off and I'm not sure how much I can take. Sneaking into my room, reprimanding me, watching me.....its getting uncomfortable.
   But....maybe going to the Cullen's later would be a good thing. I can chat with Alice, a female in a longtime relationship. I have never been in such a long relationship and maybe this is normal.

Maybe this whole thing with Edward is a phase. I am a teenager, and I do go through different phases. Perhaps I need to work this through; I was never one to give up, I'm a stubborn person. I study Edwards perfect features and I smile.
We can work through this.
Or at least, I hope we can.

I will not give up on my family.
Not yet.