Dark And Brisk

I Will Follow You Into The Dark

I walk inside after rain is pouring heavily. My stark empty house is creaking and dripping from the rain. The house is so empty after my sister Morgan was abducted. I miss her so much. My older sister Noella calls me daily and she always checks up on me.
My only "friend" from college might stop by and get help on philosophy homework but I don't know. I've only know her for a month and we rarely talk. Although I'm not sure if I have romantically feelings for her or friendly platonic. I don't know yet. Crystal is a fantastic girl though. From what I can tell.
I walk over to my table in the kitchen and throw my stuff on the table and sit down and pull out my text books and begin reading. The chapter we're reading is so boring. It's about Ghandi and all his helpfulness in the world. How his views and methods were so influential on the world. I know they were but I don't care right now.
I look over to see Morgan's backpack laying slumped on the floor under the kitchen table. I begin breaking down crying. I breathe heavily between my sobs and can barely keep myself together. I keep trying to stop crying but I can't stop and I'm just even more frustrated.
I hear a hard knock from the door. Fuck. Crystal is hear. I stuff it barely and walk over to the door and open it. Crystal sees me and is standing there and smiles at first. She sees my eyes and how poor my composure is. She says,"Hey I can leave. I can comeback when it's a better time. I don't know what's up but I can leave and come back later."
"No no it's nothing."
"You sure?"
"Yes come in please" I choke on my words.
She looks at me with a pitiful gaze. I feel terrible. I wish I had Morgan back. I told her she can stay here until the rain stops considering she probably walked her from her job here.
We sit on the couch and watch TV. Crystal sees the blood stains on the floor and on the chair next to the couch. I apologise to her about it. She tells me it's nothing she's seen her fair share of blood in her life. I smile at her weakly.
After awhile I get up and go to the bathroom. I began taking painkillers that I stole from my friend. I feel so upset I began to overdose but stop when I feel absolutely nothing. I begin to to feel so lightheaded and collapse to the ground. I begin crying. Slowly I curl into a ball in the floor. I don't want to be alive anymore. My sister was everything and losing her when it was my job to take care of her. After our dad died I promised I would. The door opens and Crystal sees the pills on the counter and sees me.