The air is as cold as the soul i once knew....
today's a new day, a day to renew.
move on from the past, and into the future.
Today is the day...
Feelings will crumble like the leaves on the ground.
thoughts will jumble without a sound.
I step outside and take a deep breath.
right there i noticed... there wasn't a death.
The death is only metaphorical, you see.
a death that has meaning, to not only you, but me.
A death that creates it's own story....
Today is the day...
I walk down the road and look at the sky.
there really is no hope for this guy.
I ponder and ponder but nothing arose,
I reached my destination... finally some hope.
today is the day...
I sit on the ground and look around,
i see no one, not a sound.
its here spiritually,you see
remember? the death that has meaning to not only you, but me?
its back, its here...
today is the day....
this death, you see, is nothing new.
in fact something old... brittle and bruised.
This death is not literal, only metaphorical, certainly not invisible... to me.
The death is not only the hope in her eyes, but the pain in her heart.
today is the day...
i block out these thoughts so simple and clean,
i can't face this death, the one thats inside of me.
She hides through a mask,
a mask of happiness, but the only thing behind it is the bitter-sweet reality,
of why and where and how it all began.
behind the mask of pain, a solid soldier grew,
one that was good at hiding feelings and forgot a thing or two.
a mask that hid nothing other than guilt,
a mask that protected the flower that wilt.
today is the day...
i stand up and see a light.. a light! hope has arrived!
the girl in the mask looks frightened... a bit blue too...
how odd to be confused by the presence of hope...
How strange to feel no happiness toward help...
today is the day!
hope had arrived! but it is not alone...
it has brought a friend.
the light slowly begins to fade, hope is leaving, leaving... leaving... gone.
then i saw why the girl had no emotion, i saw the light turn to black, and darkness all around.
the girl threw her mask off and a light arose again.
Feelings swirled in the air and quickly brew,
a mixture of feelings...
of how i thought about you...
today... is.. the... day...
Today is the day, that death and i part our ways.
today is the day that hope has changed.
today is the day that light brings about...
that eats you away, inside and out.
i can't hide my emotions anymore, i shall take off my mask and throw it to the floor.
i won't let them take me, i won't lose this war.
i will fight this death, it's gone. no more!
the anger is gone,no more sadness appears,
nothing but reality, covered in doubt...
when i slowly turned around,
the girl looked at me,
i got a good peep... i realized... she was me.
today is the day...
~A.G.F~
October 5th, 2016 ; (finished) 2:28pm
