Holding on to you

Hair-raising screams

I frowned, clearly not believing the words that just spilled out of his mouth. I was finding it hard to comprehend the way he was talking to me. Why the hell was he mad at me, all I did was tell him that I was tired of having to see his ex-whores every day, and to please take me somewhere I don't have to worry about getting rape or finding one of his ex-whore pressed up against him.

Is that too much to ask?!

"Why are you acting this way? I should be the one that is pissed off, you don't have to worry about running into my ex every day."

As soon as the words left my mouth, he jumped up and got right up in my face. It happened so suddenly that I stumbled back, coming up against the wall.

"What the f**k do you want from me, Lilly?! I told you we're staying and that's final, stop f**king pushing me before I do something I might regret!!"

My anger bobbled up inside of me, who the hell does he think he is? He thinks he's the only one who can get mad? I put my hands flat against his chest and pushed, I barely moved him but I didn't care, it was satisfying just pushing him.

"I shouldn't have to live like this, Killian! I shouldn't have to worry about finding your ex in my bedroom, or naked at the pool while you're in it! If you love me...if you love me, you'll move me away from this place and them."

He knocked my hands away from his chest then threw his head back and laughed, but it was void of humour. When he looked back at me all that was in his eyes were rage and undisguised anger.

"Is that what you think, that I f**king love you?! I. DON'T. F**KING. LOVE. YOU!"

I winced from the harshness of his words, and I couldn't stop the tears from flowing any more than I could have stopped my stupid heart from feeling shattered.

He continued, killing me with his hurtful words.

"Stop trying to invent feelings that are just not there, the only thing I love is f**king you! The only reason I want you so f**king bad is because I can't seem to get you out of my system. I love to control you; I love to see that look in your eyes when I own your body, I love the fact that although you know that I'll never be able to f**king love you, you'll never be able to stop loving me."

He leaned in close so that his lips were almost touching mine.

"I love all of those things, but what I don't love is you. I'm obsessed with you and too much of a selfish bastard to let you go and find this love that you crave so much."

His words washed over me, and I couldn't even begin to explain the emotions that were swirling around in my head. I drop my eyes from him, not wanting him to see the utter hopelessness in mine.

I was about to accept defeat and walk away, I didn't want to be in the same room with him, hell, I didn't even want to be on the same planet as him, but I settled for different rooms. However, when I tried to move he blocked my path, I lifted my eyes, giving him a confused look, but when I looked up his lips came down on mine.

At first, I just stood there shocked, but then I remembered what he just said to me and I started to push him away from me. He moved back, but only to glare at me, but I was too pissed to heed the warning.

"No! No, you don't get to have sex with me after what you just said, I'm not a toy, Killian! I have feelings and they hurt when you say f**ked up things like that."

Instead of answering me, he walked away, heading right for the door, but instead of going through it, he closed it and turned the lock. When he turned back to face me, the look on his face scared me half to death and I tried to run, wanting to get away from him, but he caught me before I could get too far.