Bleeding Love

Chapter One : The beginning

The beginning

" Are we gonna stay like this forever?"

Edward turned to her with an empty , cold look that she hated and said calmly. "Until we get bored "

The brunette sighed loudly out of disagreement observing the breathtaking view ahead of them.
The water was like a mirror showing the tiny fish playing hide and seek . The lake seemed like a black void , the moon reflecting off its surface. She could hear the fish breaking the surface of the water. The wind was calm tousling her hair every now and then.

Suddenly peace came into her heart ; peace she wished came to his too.

The girl breathed out loudly again but this time out of boredom. She tightened her grip on her jacket trying to find warmth in him . In the depth of winter he was only wearing a " T-shirt.

The girl looked at him for the fifth time that day a lot of unanswered questions running through her head causing her an awful headache. Is he really happy ?
He had told her once that he is happy with her , and that's his way of dealing with happiness. But she never believed him . How could she believe him when he's 28 that's his way of being happy.

Again that question that is haunting her everywhere .  .  . Does she love him ?

That way of dealing with life with boredom and apathy. Does she like it?Or maybe because she's 31 and without a husband made her accept him for who he is . She's always trying to convince herself that he's enough. Hundreds of ridiculous questions that she wanted to get rid of them by going out with him. Little did she know that they increase when he's around. Their way of "going out" is Edward choosing a place isolated from any human beings .With him trying to make her laugh with his kinky jokes and the rest of the night is silence .

But not today . . . She won't let that day be like the rest. The pale girl turned to him with annoyance mixed with anger in her voice and said .

" I don't want us to sit like this every time .  . I want to talk " Edward took a deep drag and exhaled the smoke into the air, watching it disappear in the cloud of smoke above them.

" I feel like our relationship is going nowhere "

He smirked exhaling the smoke .
" The world is going nowhere " His attempt of being deep failed miserably when the adrenaline rushed through her veins with every word he said.

" Adam asked me again to marry him"She was nervous about this topic.

" That blonde doctor ? " He chuckled loudly.

She nodded still talking without even looking at him .

" What did you say ? " Edward asked with half a mind . His body is with her while his mind and heart in another place.

His question provoked her and he had noticed it when she laughed coldly.

" Are you joking right ? We've been dating for a year Ed and you're still asking that damn question " Never in a million years would she imagine him asking that question.

Her normally calm and pleasant demeanor slowly changed and her face contorted in an all - consuming anger. Lucy had never seen him that way , his eyes had a deadness , a stillness in them than ever.

" Do you even love me ? " She was trying to get the answer by looking to his eyes but as usual they were hiding the ugly truth.

The curly-haired guy turned to her staring directly into her eyes. Those eyes that she had fell for however never understood them . Those eyes that made her believe him . Those eyes that used to make everything better are now dead showing no emotion.

" I love you Lucy .  .  . that's why I want you to rethink about the doctor's offer"

Brick by brick , her walls came tumbling down. As much as she tried to hold it in , she couldn't. The pearl -shaped tear rolled down her cheek slowly followed by another one , and another one , until soon a steady stream of salty tears flowed it's way down her pale cheeks releasing the sadness and the anger that has been held inside of her for a whole year.

Lucy was unable to speak, unable to breathe , and she had fully understood now how to feel nothing at all.

It was his love that caused this . It was him that made her this way . Suddenly she thought that being heartless was better than being devastated . Being cold was better that the warmth he failed to provide her with.

The cold breeze blew right through Lucy's jacket . Her hair fell loose about her face , tousled , tangled . It was a cold moonless night . The sky was dark and low , the air is so chilled it hurt to breathe or maybe that's how they felt. It lingered in the air , thick and heavy , like a blanket. Wherever they moved , it followed. The silence was poison to them , in that void of sound the shallowness of their conversation was laid bare.

Unexpectedly she started singing quietly. Her voice was smooth and clear yet powerful. Soothing in a way he thought , but he would never tell he that.

"Say something i am giving up on you" was the last thing she said before going home.

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This is a note don't want to call it an "author's note " because well i am not that good in writing to call myself an "author " .

• a lot of people won't understand what is happening in this chapter and who are they . Wait and you will understand everything later .

• some of you will say this is an end of a relationship how is it the beginning ?
The answer is every end is just the beginning of something new .

Lastly , if you liked the chapter and want me to continue this please comment and show me some feedback.

Thank you for reading.

Lots of love xx