Soulmates

Knocked Up

Regina

I had to leave that stupid hospital before I went insane. I rushed out and engulfed myself in purple smoke, taking me far away from the hospital.

I arrived in the cemetery next to Robin's headstone where the earth was still fresh from the funeral, making my heart ache. I dropped to my knees and leaned on the headstone, running my fingers over the inscription.

Father

The simple title paying homage to Robin and Roland, and unknowingly for our child. It wasn't a pleasant feeling, every time I imagined myself in this situation, I never pictured this, grief and death surrounding the conception of our child.

"Robin, I know you're not here, that you're somewhere, but I wanted you to know that you're going to be a daddy again, and I'm really scared. I'm scared that I won't be able to be a good mom to our baby because of the fucked up job I did the first time! I don't have you with me! Robin I miss you so much and I want you back, I'm sorry you died because of me, I'm sorry that I caused your son and daughter become an orphan, I'm sorry that because of me you couldn't move on!" I cried, tears running down my face as I leaned on the headstone, desperately wanting my soulmate back, someone who could hold me until the pain went away, who could make the pain go away.

"Regina?" I turned and groaned when I saw Snow standing a safe distance behind me, I quickly cleaned myself up and turned so I was facing her. She handed me a jar of vitamins and a stack of paperwork, making my nerves shake even more.

"Hey, um Eva wanted me to go over some things with you about today, so maybe later we can talk?" She asked, I felt the lump in my throat and I looked away, not wanting to talk about it in that particular moment.

Snow

"Regina..." I started, but she looked up and held her hand up to me abruptly.

"No! I don't want to have a heart to heart! I don't want to bond over this new life, I want to forget that this ever happened and I want Robin back! None of this should have happened!" She yelled, gripping the top of Robin's headstone to steady herself, a twinge of annoyance sparked in me and I shoved the vitamins in my purse, grabbing her elbow and dragging her to the car.

"Hey! What the hell are you doing?!" She cried, I jumped in the driver's side and sped back to her house, stalking up the driveway and unlocking the door with the key I had taken, tossing her things on the counter along with her paperwork that I was suppose to go over with her.

"Here! Here is all of your stuff that you need! It's all here in this packet! So there! I'll just take myself and leave! All I want to do is help and be there for you but I can't do that if you don't want me to! I know you are hurting and BELIEVE ME I am sorry, but I can't be giving without you wanting it, so here, here's your stuff, Robin Hood is not coming back Regina, and I know you're hurting and that's all you want, but he's not, but you have your family here for you, but now it's your choice, do you want us to be your family or not."  I said sternly, stalking over to the door until I heard her footsteps behind me.

"Snow, I'm sorry, don't go." She said quietly, I slowly turned around and saw her standing in the doorway with tears staining her cheeks, I felt myself calm down and I gently set my purse on the table, walking to my step mother with my arms held out, allowing her to walk into them, her tears staining my shirt.

"You're okay, I'm sorry I exploded like that." I said quietly, hugging her back, she sniffled and gripped my shoulders a bit tighter, her cries turning more steady.