The Bombshell

Part 18: Robin's Pov

   Regina was acting different. She was doing and saying all the right things, but since we left Granny's, it's like her heart wasn't in it any more. I just wished she would talk to me. "So... Zelena huh?" David was trying to make small talk with Regina, and failing. It's like she had shut down and was running on autopilot.

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   "Yeah. Zelena." She didn't say much indicating she didn't want to talk about her sister or the reasons for her being back in Storybrooke; part of which was my fault.

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   "Milady, is everything okay?" I asked, hoping Regina would open up just a little and help me to better understand why she was acting so odd.

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   "It's fine." It wasn't and all I wanted to do was help her. I wanted to hold her in my arms and reassure her that everything would work out, but I couldn't, not when I didn't believe it myself.

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   "No. You're not." I tried again, still to no avail. "Regina talk to me. Tell me what's going on." I grabbed her arm spinning her around to face me.

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   "Robin, I don't want to talk, okay? Can we just focus on finding Gold and The Author?" She yanked her arm from my grip, but I wasn't giving in so easily.

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   "I want to help you, but you have to tell me what's wrong." Regina froze to the spot. She loved me; I loved her, and that obviously meant something to her.

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   "Trust me, you don't don't what to know what's going on in my head right now." She urged, but she was wrong. I did.

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   "Try me." I took her hand in mine, but all she did was gaze at the floor unable to look me in the eye.

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   "You really want to know?" She gave me one last chance to back down, but I was't giving up. I just held on to her hand even tighter. "Fine." There was a brief pause before Regina continued. "I'm scared. What if I'm not strong enough?" That was crazy. She was the strongest person I knew. "What if I'm not strong enough to deal with having Zelena be a part of our lives forever?" I moved closer attempting to wrap my arms around her, but she pulled back. "Don't! There's more. A part of me is still angry at you; it still blames you. You professed your love for me as you left Storybrooke and then just two months later I find out you knocked up my sister." Tears filled her eyes. I didn't blame her. In fact I agreed with her and a part of me blamed me too.

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   "But I choose you Regina. You know that!" She gave me a weak smile; a knowing smile as she wiped her eyes.

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   "I love you. I do, but..." Tears were now uncontrollably streaming down her cheeks. "but it's going to take me some time to fully be able to commit to us after what's happened." That I understood, but it still hurt to hear her say it. Regina was my future; that I was sure of, but I knew now that that future would take quite bit of work to reach.