Hacking into my Hyper-linked Heart

Chapter 15- Guilty Feelings

"Argh not this again, mother haven't I told you I am not ready for this yet."

"But what happened to that young man."

"What young man?" I asked confused. Was she on about Ethan? No she couldn't because she doesn't know anything , I then realised why am I thinking of Ethan when there is nothing going on in the first place.

"Oooh that Chris boy."

I froze in spot, OMG how could I forget about Chris? Ever since I found out Ethan was the stranger from the club who was going to interview me, I have been fretting about that. I have totally forgot about Chris which made me feel very guilty.

"Oh him, err we haven't spoken for a while..." I trailed not knowing what to say.

"Oh never mind, you will find your prince soon." My mother assured me

"Yeah I will." I muttered not really believing the words that my mother said.

"Well I'm off I have a book club to go to."

"Okay bye mum." I said and ended the call.

I turned towards the girls and sat down to continue to eat. I participated in replying back to their question but honestly my mind was miles away. All I could think was how could I forget about Chris. As soon as Leah and Holly left, I went to my bedroom and logged in my profile. There sat in my inbox two messages from Chris. I clicked on the first one.

From: Chris

Wow !! That really hurt me, how could you not realise so much time has passed since we chatted? Have I not made a difference in your life :P

From CC

I couldn't help but giggle at his response. I then clicked on the second message.

From: Chris

Are you giving me a silent treatment for not replying for ages? I knew you were mad at me but honestly I was busy with work. Message me when you feel like talking :)

From CC

After reading the second message, the happiness I felt with the first message was instantly replaced by guilt. How could I forget to message him? I acknowledged my feelings for him as a 'crush', if you honestly do have a crush shouldn't you day dream about that person most of the time? Argh I am so crap at this stuff, I think my mother should have bought me a book called 'The Ins and Outs of Love for Dummies' at least that would help me with this stupid situation. There was a knock on my door which caused me to stop talking to myself and answer "Come in."

Sally walked in, "Hey what you doing?"

"Nothing" I answered.

"Really?" She smirked at me. "I don't know why I have this feeling your messaging Chris."

"How did you know?" I asked in shock. "I mean I wasn't messaging him just reading and thinking." I said casually.

"What's up?" Sally prodded me on my arm

"Nothing and stop doing that it's annoying." I whined

"I know something is up cause your biting your lip and you definitely do that when you're in your own world thinking."

"Fine," I looked up at Sally. "I totally forgot to message Chris since that day I found out Ethan was the guy who was going to interview me and I feel very guilty. I mean I thought I acknowledged my feelings for him which FYI is a crush, if I do have a crush then why did I forget to message him?" I babbled.