I lost one of my best friends his name was Chris, two weeks before he died he turned 18. Its been 26 days since he died but it feels like it was yesterday, his face haunts me in my dreams just him laying in his coffin taken way to soon. I should have hugged him more and told him that I love him more but now I just wait until I get to see him again. I remember my homecoming he was there and he was just dancing with me and my best friend Kiyara, I remember his smile and his laugh, I remember how he didn't care if anyone looked at him weird. I remember Chris he was a part of my world and he forever will be. My last words to him ever were goodbye Chris but I didn't know that would be our last goodbye, I wish I would have hugged him and just kept him over my house so he didn't have to leave. I wish I could have saved him but I couldn't. He was a part of my small world that I thought was a lot bigger until this happened it definitely brought it back down to its extremely small size. Never take advantage of your loved ones because they can be taken away just as fast as you can call their name for them to come back. I've tried so many ways to try and get closure over his death but I cant I don't know what to do, some people tell me to pray but what if it doesn't help for me people tell me to talk to him but what much is it worth if he doesn't answer back, people tell me to forget about it but how can I forget about someone who made that large of an impact on my life. People say rude things about him and it makes me crazy and then my family tells me that they don't know what they are talking about and they are wrong. I don't need any of these things I just Chris back , I just want him back. Ill give anything to see him smile and hug me one more time Id give up anything just to talk to him one last time. Everyone tells me that everything will be okay and for me to not worry about it but how can I not worry if every time I blink I see his face and every time I look at my walls I imagine back to before we moved in he helped me paint them I just cant handle it.
Goodbye Chris Green Ill love you forever and always.
