The Matrimony Book#2 (Completed)

Chapter 19-Breakdown Part 2

Cathrine Hugged Me And Said "Its Gon Be Okay...."

And I Believe That

I Believe That One Day That Everything Would Be Okay

It Time I Be A Big Girl And Faced My Problems Like A Grown Woman Im Sick So Sick And I Needed Help

I Been Lost For So Long And I Needed To Find Myself Again

I Was Going To Rehab Not Only For Ayden But For Myself Because I Got To Get Better To Be The Best Person I Can Be For Ayden

I Wanted To Get Better,I Wanted To Change My Life For The Better I Wanted To Be Me Again

God How Did I Let My Life Get This Out Of Control

I Used To Be Tough But Here I Was Breakdown Cryin Packin My Things

This Grown Woman Was Still An Broken Little Girl Inside And I Know Exactly Why

Before I Checked Myself In Rehab I Needed To Visit Someone

I Knew Where He Stayed Not Far From Where I Was So I Got My Keys And Took A Long Drive

Untill I Reached His His House I Sat In The Car For A Moment Just Trynaa To Figure Out Was I Was Going To Say To Him

When I Finally Finished Thinking I Got Out My Car And I Slowly Walked To His Door

Lookin Inside His Home From The Windows I Could See He Was Having Dinner With Her And His Three Young Children They Have Together

They Looked Like The Perfect Family The Ones You See On Tv,A Happy One

I Rang His Doorbell And Anxiously Waiting For Him To Opened The Door
I Was Angry Sad And Had So Many Questions To Ask Him

But He Didn't Opened The Door She Opened The Door

White As Snow,Pretty Ass An Model,She Had Blonde Hair And Blue Eyes That Sparkle

She Smiled At Me And Asked "Yes...Can I Help You"

"Is Christopher Home"I Asked

"Yes I'll Get Him For You....Christopher You Have An Visitor"She Said

And I Saw Him Walked Too The Door He Was Tall Dark,And Very Handsome,He Skin Was Smoother Than An Hershey Chocolate Bar

He Looked At Me And And Said "Yes"

He Didn't Even Recognize Me As If I Was Some Kind Of Stranger

I Stood Looking At Him Head To Toe I Couldn't Believe He Was Standing Right Infront Of Me

"Daddy Its Me"I Said Staring Him In His Eyes

"Aziah..."He Said Instantly Said Lookin Closely At Me

And Unexpectly I Got Emotional

"I Need To Talk To You...Alone"I Said

Still Shocked I Was In front Of Him He Said "Baby Could You Give Us A Minute"To His Wife The Woman Who Stole My Father From My Mother

She Smile Politely And Said "No Problem"As She Went Back Inside

"Your Beautiful I Can't Believe Im Lookin At My Daughter You Don't Know How Many Nights I Prayed For This Moment"He Said

"You Didn't Pray More Than I Did I Prayed So Much For To Come Back Home I Think God Put Me On A Blocklist"I Said Laughin Slightly

"You Don't Know How Good It Feels To See You Look Like Your Mother"He Said Smilin To Himself

"Thats Funny She Always Say I Look Like You,I've Felt Like I Was More Like You Than My Mother...But Nevermind All That I Need To Say Some Things To You"I Said

"I Know You Do So Go Ahead Let It All Out"He Said

I Look At The Man Who Abandoned For His Own Happiness And Said "Well Let Me Start Off By Sayin...That Daddy Im Sorry"

"Sorry...What Are You Sorry For"He Said Looking At Me Confused

"Yes Im Sorry Daddy,For Hating You All These Years I've Been Angry With You Daddy For So Long That Day I Watched You Packed All Your Things And Leave Us Was The Day My Heart Was Broken By A Man...All My Birthdays You Missed,All My Daddy Daughter Dances You Missed,And Every Christmas You Wasn't Around Daddy It Made Me A Monster Insided I Needed You I Needed You So Bad"I Said As I Started Crying

He Held His Head Down As I Continued "I Have A Son,A Beautiful Son,And I Also Have An Addiction A Very Ugly Addiction....All My Life Been Searching For The Love That You Never Gave To Me...I Even Turn To Drugs To Find That Love But I Never Found It And Daddy Im Not Here To Blamin For The Mess Up Life I Had Im Just Hear To Let You Know That I Can't Keep Holding To All This Anger And Hate Anymore....Daddy My Heart Can't Keep All These Burdens I Got To Forgive You"I Said

"So I Forgive You"I Cried Softly

He Looked Up At Me And Said "I Thought About You Everyday I Even Wrote To You..."

"Its Wasn't Enough....But Don't Worry So Much I Want You To Live Your Life Happily I Forgive You I Do And Believe Or Not I Still Love You Just As Much As I Did Back Than One Thing You Gave Me Was My Life Now I Gotta Live It The Right,And If I Never See You Again Daddy I'll Be Okay.. I've Gotta Go"I Said Quickly Wiped The Tears From My Face And Left

I Felt Like I Had Wash My Soul Just A Little And My Heart Isn't So Heavy I Know I've Long Road Ahead Of Me But Im Ready Im Ready For That Change