In her loving memory

That day was a catastrophe. Kneeling down in the rain with tiny drops pouring down from my eyes, all I knew was ' I am alone '. The last time I had seen her was when I left home ; as usual, in a haste- struggling with my shoes and running as I shouted " Bye mama!".. " Bye Daarling, take care", she had said.

I was busy in the office; grumpy, hungry, exhausted and fierce! And suddenly my phone rings." Oh! It's mama's. " Excited I pick it up. But I hear an unknown voice who says your mom is dead. I was shocked. I couldn't believe it. I didn't believe it. " U are lying", I cried aloud. I walked out of the office.

I was broken. In the turn of a second, the grief of the world had flooded over me, leaving me with a thousand scars of infinite pain. Her face flickered on my head. She was my everything. I remember how I came running to her after my school, how I cried in her lap everytime papa scolded, how I kissed her when she would bring my favorite vanilla ice-cream, how she cried when I was going to a 5 day trip to the hills, how I shouted at her when I wouldn't find my things the early morning. Everything flashed on my mind and I couldn't stop crying.

A month had already passed. Her funeral was over but still I couldn't pull myself up. I lay there ; miserable and cold. Her death had torn me into pieces.. Her death gave me nightmares, restless days and a frightening life. But life couldn't go on like that . I had a brother in a row. He needed me. Moreover, I needed myself. Then finally I decided to move on.

Moving on isn't easy! Of course. You are so attached to somebody and suddenly one moment takes her away from you. You can't imagine a life without the person. But I learnt that moving on was not letting go. It was going with the flow of time. Time heals all wounds. Time healed my wounds ...Some were deep...but soon I was healed. Her memories healed them. Her love healed them.

It's been 8 years now. I am a mother of a son and I know how much he loves me. Even though I had spent a very short time with her, she will always be there in my heart. Her love still makes me warm, makes me cozy and makes me smile.

And today I write it all in her loving memory....