twenty-two // i'm too depressed to go on

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I sighed, sitting down on the edge of my bed. "He's not going to take it well. I'm not going to be able to just barge into his house and say that I had sex with Joshua and he automatically forgive me without a second thought. Garrett's an angry person and I don't trust him not to hurt Josh."

"Chicago," the boy in front of me said, "Garrett has been looking for a reason to fight Josh once day one. He wants to come out as the alpha male and your fun-filled weekend has given him enough reason to prove that you are his, not Josh's. Besides, if you let him be mad at Josh, that means that he won't be as mad at you."

Aiden had a point, but I didn't want Garrett to blame Josh for everything. I was the one that gave in and agreed to it, Josh didn't force me to do anything against my will hence the reason why I should mainly be the one to blame.

"What should I do?" I asked, my voice cracking.

"Go over to Garrett's, okay?" Aiden answered, softly. "Talk things out with him and trust me, he can't stay angry at you. He loves you more than you think. Everything will be okay."

I nodded, standing up and slipping my sandals onto my feet. "You are right, Aiden. I just remember confess because the guilt is eating me alive."

Aiden grinned, reaching for the TV remote on my nightstand. "While you do that, I will stay here and watch peaceful TV where my parents can't interrupt me."

I rolled my eyes, heading towards the door until Aiden's voice stopped me. "Before you go, at least tell me if Josh was good or not."

"No comment."

--Garrett's P.O.V--

When I received a knock on my door, I didn't expect Chicago, who automatically burst into tears the moment she made eye contact with me. Her hair was freshly dyed bright red once again with blonde streaks around her face. As I let her inside and shut the door, she tackled me into a hug, burying her face in my chest and wrapping her arms around my waist. Her entire body shook with sobs as I guided her towards the couch and pulled her into my lap. I wrapped my arms around her body, rocking her back and forth.

"What's wrong, baby girl?" I asked, quietly, as her hand tangled itself into my shirt.

Chicago shook her head, not able to get any words out of her mouth. "Garrett, honey?" My mother called, stepping into the living room. "What's going on?"

I shook my head, gesturing for her to leave us alone. She nodded, a look of concern still on her face as she left the room once more.

"Chicago, babe, talk to me," I said. She pulled away from me and I ran my thumb across her face, trying to wipe away all her tears. "Is it your parents again? Lilac problems? Aiden problems maybe?"

She shook her head, a hiccup escaping her mouth. "Is it Josh?" I suggested, hoping that I was wrong.

"Sort of," she choked out. I stroked a strand of red hair out of her face which caused her to sob once more. "I'm so sorry, Garrett. I just wish it never happened and I don't even want to look at Joshua. Please don't be mad at me!"

"Sweetheart, what are you talking about?" I asked. "What happened between you and Josh that would cause me to be angry?"

That's when it dawned on me.

"Did he touch you inappropriately?" I demanded, anger causing my blood to start boiling. "If so, you can tell me. You don't need to be afraid to tell me the truth about anything."

My girlfriend hiccuped again, sniffling. "When we went to the mall Saturday, he k-kissed me and t-then we went back to his house. It- It just happened and I feel so guilty."

I reached out to grab a hold of Chicago's face, forcing her to meet my eyes. "Please do not tell me that you slept with him, Chicago. I'm begging you, please do not tell me that."

She stayed silent, burying her face in her hands as she started sobbing again. That gave me the answer I didn't want to hear. My girlfriend cheated on me and I could feel my anger starting to flare, but weirdly enough, I was not angry at Chicago at all. I was angry at Josh.

"I knew you were going to be mad at me," she cried. "I'm so sorry, Garrett, I'm so sorry."

I sighed, reaching out to pull her against me. My arms tightened around her as she leaned her head onto my shoulder, sobs still shaking her entire body

"I know you are sorry, Chicago, and I am a bit upset with the fact that somebody other than me got to touch you like that, but I love you with everything I have. That means I can hardly stay angry at you no matter what you've done."

She peeked out at me through her curtain of hair. "Does that mean that you forgive me?"

I nodded. "I will always forgive you, I promise."

However, that didn't mean Josh was going to go unpunished.

•••

Chicago decided to spend the night which made my mother extremely happy. After dinner, we excused ourselves upstairs where I took a shower as Chicago watched TV in my room. When I stepped into my room twenty minutes later, freshly clean, I found her asleep on top of the covers.

A grin appeared on my face as I made my way over to the bed, gently lifting her body up where I could pull back the blankets

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A grin appeared on my face as I made my way over to the bed, gently lifting her body up where I could pull back the blankets. She groaned, shifting, slightly in my arms, but stayed asleep. I laid her back down, pulling the blankets over her small figure before kissing her forehead.

When I looked at Chicago, I always developed a strange feeling in my chest. My heart would speed up, my palms would start sweating, and I would feel a swell of happiness in my body. The first time that happened, I knew that I was in love with her. I knew I never wanted to leave her side and hopefully, I never did.

I stroked a strand of a hair off her forehead before smiling once more.

"Chicago, I love you so much. You make me such a better person. You know how to calm the fits of anger and the spells of sadness and I'm truly thankful that you are in my life." I paused, taking a breath.

"As soon as I graduate this year, I'm going to ask you to marry me."

A/N: I'm seeing Blink-182 in concert this year and I'm so happy.

-L.A

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