Im kinda broken

intro/chapter 1 ^.^

First off my name is Bethany im 16 years old. Ive spent 3 years in a mental hospital for cutting, suicidal attempts,  and anger. yes. Thats true. I have eyes that change color from dark blue to green to hazel or to aqua. I have freckes. Im on the cheer team only becuase im extreamly flexible and light wieght im the perfect flier. I also have done archery since I was 7 I grew up in the forest so I went hunting alot. Im an expert. So thats the bacics of me. Oh yeah my parents got devorsed when I was 2 and I stopped seeing my dad 6 years ago due to him becoming an acholic and abusive like beating me and my sister and 2 older brothers. Thats about it so thats the basics of my life since I have moved to a bigger town and I go to tall pines high school I still live in the same area though its still forest for sure just closer to town. I also have a crush on this boy his name is Evan he is older than me buy about 8 months he is actually nice to me and he is one of my only other friends besides Rebecka we were roomates in the asylum we were there for the same things I am also friends with the jocks and barely any cheerleaders. By the way we somtimes call Rebecka Becky. Oh and my nick names are Beth, bethy, bethers, be, and bethy boo

I walked to my locker its right in the middle of Rebecka and Dylan who is a Jock and all his friends are and have lockers near us our so I have them annoying me. They are nice, they are like my older brothers they tease me like that. Rebecka too. It is really only the girls that are mean. Dylan walked up to his locker which was right next to mine. "hey um Evan wanted me to tell you to meet him during football practice today Beth See ya there little one." he said walking away with me under his arm in almost a head lock but lose like a brotherly kind. He was sweet to me too. "okey. Dylan can you loosen your grip I think your choking me!" I said back in a playful tone. " ok see ya then or probly before I dont know but once again bye lass." "Bye bye Dylan see ya soon!" We said in a terrible fake british accents. He was the sweetest off the buch he was always there for me with Evan too they were best friends.

It was after school me and Rebecka sat on the bleachers and watched the boys practice. "why dont you have practice today?" "the boys are using the field we take turns using it." I answered. "oh ok." About 2 hours later practice was over and I climbed down the bleachers with Rebecka not far behing paying more attention to her phone than the bleachers. Evan started to climb up to meet me. " hey Becky I think that your sister is here to pick you up." "thanks for telling me she will be pissed if im late." She ran down the rest of the bleachers. Evan and I rambled on about some stupid things in math and random stuff until almost all the other boys left. He dragged me down to the bottom of the bleachers and we went underneth them. "I really wanted to ask you this. I really like you Bethany will you to be my girl friend?"  I was so shocked that I stood still and silent for about 5 minutes. " sure id love too." "come on." We walked around and sat in the field. We lied down in the grass our hands tightly enterlocked. Since we are already pretty close friends we didnt mind the rushing into the relationship thing I mean really we didnt mind."I love you." "me too" I said. I scooted closer to him and put my face in the crook of his neck. Then all of asudden we both leand in and kissed. We basically made out for 10 minutes until Dylan came back becuse he forgot his football helmet. "well I see we have a new couple. Wait no just a pair of immiture teenagers." "hey. What the heck. Your just jelous Dylan so back off!" Evan saod in a loud protective and kind of joking voise. Next thing I new they were in a fist fight on the ground fighting in front of me. "stop please just let it go. Please." Evan threw one last puch and they stopped. Dylan walked off with a black eye and a bruised nose. Evan had a bloody nose and his eye was swollen. "are you ok?" I asked in a sweet tone. "I guess." The blood ran down onto his jearsy and stained the with dark red blood. I grabbed a few tissues from my my new vera bradley purse and wiped off most of the blood. The stain looked pretty bad. "what are going to do about that stain?" "oh shit thats worse that I thoght it would be." He took off his jearsey and threw it in the grass next to us. "ill just wash it later I dont want to stain it more." I almost died when I saw his abs they were perfect. He was slim and fit. He had a perfectly built body. He pulled my hair out of the perfect poney tail it was in to the ugly mess of a mop it was when it was down. He comed through my hair with his fingers. I slipped my fingers through his brown hair. His eyes looked like melted chocolate soft and sweet.

I looked at my phone becuase it starting to get dark out. 8:19 "oh shit! I love you babe but I gotta go." " ill drop you off dont worry." "thanks babe your a life saver!" I.said as he pulled his jearsey back on. " were do you live?" "639 river pine rd." I said. "hey I live on that steet! I live actrss the street." As we pulled up I kissed him goodbye and ran up stairs. "where the fuck were you Bethany mom will be here in like 5 minutes." I ran up stairs ignoring my 3 sibblings. Courtney 19 my older sister, Luke 18 my older brother, and Kyle 19 the oldest of all of us. Kyle and Courtney are twins, Kyle is older by 20 minutes.

I looked at my phone and saw that Dylan had texted. The text said: Hope you and Evan are having a fun time.Seeing that just destroyed my dreams so since your already taken by Evan I guess ill just ask Becky out. Bye. You are a jerk. And btw I was planning to ask you out too thats why im so pissed with Evan and partly you too Beth. How could u even say yes to him. Just I dont care what u have to say. Bye.

Tears came to my eyes. How could he say that I thought we were friends. Evan. I ran to his house it was across the street. His older brother Alex answered the door and let me in seeing I was crying and asked for him. "he is up stairs." I ran up stairs he opened his door to see who was there. I ran into his arms and cried silently into his shoulder he rapped his arms tightly around my waist. "Bethany whats wrong?" He asked so sweetly and sinserly. I handed him my phone and cried more. He looked at my phone afew minutes. "that son of a bitch! What the fuck is his problem?" Evan screamed angerly. "come on Beth." He grabbed my hand and dragged me down stairs. "Alex im gonna stop by Dylans really quickly be back soon." "bye bro see ya then." We got in his car and sped twards Dylans house. When we pulled up he said "ring the door bell and ask him to come out side to talk then ill come over " "ok" I said back. I ran to the front porch. The door opened and he stood right there. "what do you want? Let me guess you broke up with Evan to get together with me? Sorry Becky is my girl now." "you fucking back staber I fucking hate you!" I screamed hot tears streamed down my face. "im sorry bethy im really sorry I didnt mean to hurt your feelings please! Im sorry!" He tried to hug me. Evan came up right then and screamed "get the fuck off her do you know how much damage you aready did to her? Do you? you went from being like a brother to her to being a back stabber just leave her alone. By the way I saw the text." "how?" Evan punched him and we walked back to his car. "its ok dont worry. I promise it will be ok." "im afraid Evan I really am. What will Becky do? Now she knows I did that to her boyfriend. She was my only best friend." "it will be ok dont worry." He pulled me into a hug and played with my hair." We drove back home. "when we get back you wanna watch a movie at my house?" I asked. "sure. What should we watch?" "how bout a horror?" "sounds good bethy boo."

we parked the car and ran into my house and put in 'the grudge'. We fell asleep on the couch cuddling. "aww little sister has a boy friend." Courtney joked taking pictures of us."hey what the hell Courtney you better not do anything with those." "its not like I put them on twitter. Instagram, Facebook, and tumblr." She ran up the stairs laughing. I checked my phone as did Even. "She did post them. Ugh so annoying." I said. we walked into the front yard and kissed "goodnight see you tommorrow beautiful!" "ok love ill see you too!" we kissed one last time and said I love you then walked back to each others houses.