CyberBully (Completed)

CyberBully

DONT READ THIS ITS SO BAD I WROTE IT WHEN I WAS IN SIXTH GARDE AND LISTENED TO MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE JUST STOP NOW PLEASE IM FUCKING BEGGING YOU

I look down at my paper white hand holding a small orange cylinder with a white cap. I stand in my cramped grey colored room. A rope with a loop on it is on my white bed. A chair is underneath the ceiling fan. I take a long, deep breath and move the rope to the light of the fan. I secure it, and stand on the chair. I take an identical breath to the one before. I slide the loop around my neck and look blankly at the wall. this is it, I think. Inhaling one last look of my room. WAIT, I think. Before I do this I should write some notes! I hop down off the chair careful to slide the rope off my neck. I walk over to my small grey desk and get a pad of paper. I slide my favorite ballpoint pen towards me, and grasp it in my hand.

Dear mom and dad,

       Please know that I love you and will never stop loving you. You guys raised, cherished and loved me for my entire 16 years. You guys don't deserve what I'm doing to you, and I'm the worst daughter ever. Just please know, this is not and never was your fault. You have nothing to do with the cause of my suicide.

Dear Charlie My favorite brother,

Even though we had some fights, I will never stop loving you. You also have nothing to do with this I promise. When somebody made fun of me at school you would always stand up for me, whenever I needed a favor you were always there for me. Always. Keep being fun loving and smart assy no matter what you do. By the way, good luck in finals!

Dear Veronica my favorite sister,

You were the best sister anybody could ask for. You always did my nails, advised me what to wear, did my makeup, helped me shop, gave me boy advice, helped me whenever I was in trouble and so on. I just wish I didn't have to do this. And just like the others, you are not a part of this. I love you just the same as mom, dad, Charlie, Jessy, and Payton. And trust me, that's ALOT of love. Please keep doing what you do, and win the cheer finals. Keep Cheering Charlie on at football, and never EVER EVER give up.

Dear Jessy,

You know what this is about, and you did all you could to stop it. Again you know it's not even slightly your fault. I don't have to tell you keep moving forward because I know that you will. thanks for being the best best friend ever. I'm gonna miss you.

Dear Payton,

How am I going to do this? You were my one true love. You patched up the immediate bumps along the road, and I can't thank you enough for that. But please, date other girls, move on from me. I heard Melissa liked you. Go for her, she's nice, pretty, and smart, qualities I never had. be yourself, and don't ever forget about me.

And finally dear lindsayrocks214, heatherthefeather20, and qtgirlforevah76,

You made my life hell. And trust me somebody will email this to you guys, and you could take the guilt to hell I really really hope you feel guilty for this. You stalked, insulted, threatened and tortured me 24/7. I'm just saying, thanks a lot for making me realize I hate my life. See you on the other side.

To all people on the list before the reason I did suicide, do this for me,

find a way to send this upcoming dedication to one direction. Make sure they read it and respond. I just need to know they care about me. Please. Even if this suicide attempt fails, send it to them while I'm in the hospital. I just need to know. Here ya go, send this:

Dear Louis Tomlinson,

Thank you for making me laugh, thank you for singing beautifully, thank you for loving me even though you don't know me. Just know I love you forever, and don't let one suicide of you fan bring you down. Just smile and think nothing of me, alright. Keep wearing stripes and for old times sake, wear the red jeans, the striped shirt, and the suspenders. Wear them. for me.

Dear Liam Payne,

Thank you for keeping the guys out of jail, for singing like an angel, for being funny AND responsible, and thank you for never giving up on your fans. thanks. I love you forever and always, and don't lt my suicide put a frown on your face. Just turn it upside down. And do the 1.2.3. FLICK to a fan, just for me.

Dear Zayn Malik,

Oh dear lord, Thank you for being our Bradford bad boi, our DJ Malik, for getting those insanely hot tattoos, for singing amazayn, for being mysterious, for being funny, for bringing back the quaff, and please for old times sake put on your number or at least get a piece of paper and write 16516 onto it. Keep your head up and I hope your wedding with Perrie is beautiful, just like she is and you are.

Dear Harry Styles,

Thank you for being the flirt, for being cheeky, loving cats, eating tacos, being the light of the band, going shirtless, and most importantly HAVING THOSE INCREDIBLY HOT CURLS! AHH THEYRE SO FLUFFY! And for old times sake, just wear those boxers. and ONLY those boxers. I'm sure it won't be to hard on the eyes for some other directioners.

And Dear Niall Horan,

Oh god, I'm sobbing. Thank you. For dying your hair blond, for eating everything in sight, for being the little Irish, for needing a baby sitter, for being the absolute baby of the group and finally, for being my hero. You kept me alive for 3 years, but words hurt more than you heal. You were my hero, the only thing that could make me have second thoughts about killing myself, but this time, my hatred towards myself is so strong, nothing can save me. Keep that beautiful chin up and please, I beg you don't cry. I love you, and don't you ever ever let the haters get the best of you okay. Don't let what's happening to me happen to you. They're all just jealous, and if any one ever tries to hurt you, you tell Liam. Got it. Keep singing and being people's heroes. I guarantee you could save at least 1000 people. I don't know how else to express my everlasting love for you. So, goodbye Niall James Horan. Goodbye.