Are you scared? (A reylo fanfic)

Chapter 7

I woke up the next day with the same nightmare as before. I just sat there on my bed, lost in thought I guess. I was worried I had made the wrong decision about the execution. I just chose to kill those people instead of making peace. The whole resistance was created to make peace. Everyone is blind to that now. I was too, I still am. It's hard to tell the right from the wrong. Lives will end because of the choices I made and I can't live with that, but I can change it. Wait what am I saying? I would anger everyone. They all expect me to go through with it. I think of Kylo, his apology was sincere, or so it seemed. The thought of him dying was painful now. I can't go back to the times when I wished he was dead, I can only look to the future. How is that so? Could I possibly be letting my feelings get in the way of justice? Feelings, I didn't think I'd have any towards him. I don't, do I? This is all so confusing. I have concluded that I have gone soft, these people will get what they deserve. Wait, why am I blushing then?