You Chose To Love Me (StudxStud) [Completed]

1: October

(October & Rose In Media)

OCTOBER'S P.O.V

"October" she yelled while running after me.

I knew this was going to happen. How could I be so stupid, how could I think that she would be any different. She knew what I was from the beginning.

A stud

I don't get why people care so much about labels. They mean nothing to me, it's just the way society made it to be. It's simply a stereotype.

For once in my life I knew I deserved so much more than what I was receiving.

"October" she yelled again and suddenly her hands were around my waist. I pushed her away.

"No. I don't even wanna fucking hear it" I yelled

I couldn't believe she had thee audacity to try to change me. Knowing how hard it was for me to even accept myself. I wasn't going to change for anyone, not even her. No matter how much I loved her.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I just don't like the way people look at us." She admitted

I started walking away again and for once she didn't say a word. I walked all the way back to our house with her right behind me. I didn't give a shit about what other people thought or how many people stared at us in public, all I cared about was being with the woman that I loved. No matter how she fucking dressed.

I went in the room as I slammed the door shut. I went into the bathroom as I got inside the shower letting my curls fall down my back.

I sighed as I felt a body against mine. I knew it was her but I wasn't in the mood to deal with her rightnow. "Rose go away" I cried out.

She didn't seem to listen as her hands slid down my back. I couldn't deny that I was vulnerable to her touch, I couldn't argue with her, I couldn't stop myself from enjoying every minute of it.

Later That Night...

Rose and I were now laying on the bed. I was laid on my stomach while her head was laying on my chest. She looked up at me with a loud sigh as she spoke. "October we need to talk"

I nodded my head at rose telling her to continue but the words that left her mouth again made my blood boil.

"I just want you to dress a little more girlier. I just don't like the way people look at us in public." She stated again

I was more than angry, I was livid. How could she say this to me yet again. That was her problem she cared so much about what everyone else thought that she didn't stop to think about how she felt, about what she wanted.

"Have you ever stopped to ask yourself what you want? And why is it that you care so much of what everyone else thinks" I replied calmly

She stood up from the bed as she sat on the edge. She obviously didn't know what to say because she didn't even respond. After a long pause she spoke again "I want you"

I looked at rose and I couldn't deny that what she was saying was true. "If you want me then why are you trying to change me"

I need her to understand that this is the way that I am and she knew that when she met me. Just because we are both studs doesn't mean that we aren't allowed to love each other. Shes so focused on what society thinks that she doesn't stop to think about what she's doing to our relationship.

"Rose you knew I was a stud when you met me and you said you didn't care. You said thats what you liked about me because I was different and free spirited and that I didn't give a damn what everyone else thought. So why do you, tell me why are you so fixated on changing me?"

I've been with this woman since freshman year in highschool and we just graduated two weeks ago. I'm 18 and shes 19, we've been together for 5 years with alot of bumps and bruises along the way and all of a sudden she has a problem with me dressing the way that I do.

"I don't know, I just want you to dress a little girlier, I mean that's not to much to ask for" she stated.

I grabbed a bag and started putting my clothes and a few of my belongings inside. As she started to yell at me. "October where are you going?"

She didn't realize that the things that were coming out of her mouth were hurting me so bad. Cutting me to the fucking core.

"It is to much to ask for rose. You don't get it do you? I'm staying at a friend's house until you can stop trying to change me."

She tried stopping me as she pushed me against the wall. Gripping my wrist tightly. I looked at her as tears spilled out of her eyes.

I wasn't changing my mind this time.
She pleaded and pleaded that she wasn't trying to change me and to please not leave her but I was done, I no longer wanted to be with someone who didn't fully accept me.

"Yes you are. I need you to remember something for me. When I leave I want you to remember why you started loving me in the first place. Can you do that for me?" I whispered in her ear as her tears lingered on my shoulder. She buried her face in the crook of my neck sobbing for me not to leave.

I pushed her away lightly as I got the rest of my things and started to walk down the stairs. Before I made it to the front door. She blocks it

"No, I won't let you leave me. No I'm not going to let you walk away" she yelled at me.

I looked at her tears threatening to come out. Before I could stop her she roughly put her lips against mine.

Let's just say that I didn't leave. We ended up making love most of tonight.

The Next Day....

I woke up naked next to rose and I couldn't help but be mad at myself for not being able to push her away last night.

As I'm putting my clothes on, she wakes up. Sleepily looking at me her eyes went a little wide. "You're still leaving?" She asked and I nodded my head before continuing to put my clothes on.

I walked down the stairs with rose following behind me, this time I was determined to leave.. Once I get to the door I turn around and look at rose, her teary stained eyes are once wet again and I couldn't help but be completely broken that it had to come to this.

I slowly put my hands around her waist as I brushed my lips against hers once more.

"Rose I need you to remember that you chose to love me, the way that I am and that loving me has nothing to do with the way that I dress" I put my lips against hers once again but this time it lasted way longer than the one before. I kissed her hard and passionately before I pulled away.

I pick up my bags and start to walk out the door. I'm so afraid that this is the last time I'll be seeing her. I quickly turn around, I look at her for the longest time and I knew she was crying. I hesitated before finally speaking

"Rose know that there is beauty in loving a stud that can acknowledge she is still a woman"

And with that I proceeded to walk away fearing that would be the last time I'd see the woman I truly loved..