Until Death Do Us Apart

First Awakening

When i woke my whole body felt heavy and exhausted and i had no idea wether where i was nor what happened.

But after my head cleared and i felt the bandages on my wrists, my memories kicked in and i remembered the in blood covered blade, the blood covered floor and the high scream of my mother, who almost lost consciousness when she saw me, laying in my own blood.

'Honey? Oh my god sweetie, are you awake?' My mom jumped up from her seat, hurried over to my bed and grabt my hand.

That was the moment when i realised that both of my arms were cuffed to the bed and no sarp objects were anywhere to be found in my hospital room.

'Mom, please don't tell me that i am still alive.' I untangled myself from my mother and looked deep into her totally confused eyes.

After a few seconds her face turned into a humorously smile and she laughed.

'At least now we know that you didn't lose your sense of humour by this little... accident.'

For a second i stopped breathing. That's what she thought about what happened? A little accident?
But what did i expect from my conservative, overdetailed mother, who would never admit that her own daughter tried to commide suicide right in front of her.

'Are dad or haven here?' My hope increased when i thought about my dad and my sweet little brother.

Other than my mother, the rest of my family didn't only care about our appearance to her friends but about how i actually felt.

But because my dad worked full time or were on business trips and my brother wasn't taken for granted from my mother, i was revealed to all of my mother choices.

And that was one of the reasons why i tried to kill myself.

And that is why i won't stop until i succeed.