Adopted By One Direction

Chapter 9: Mean

Rachel's POV

Once we got inside I raced to my bedroom and quickly got my diary and flipped to the next blank page.

Dear diary,

Well today I finally got adopted although I'm a little glad I don't have to live in the orphanage anymore I'm scared of the people who adopted me. I was adopted by world famous boy band One Direction. Most people would be happy but I am most definitely not. I mean I love where I live and all but I guess I'm scared of living with five boys I honestly don't ever think I'll be able to be with any guy and not be scared. When it comes to girls I think I could get used to hanging out with them. And tomorrow I have to go to the mall with Eleanor, Louis's girlfriend, and Perrie, Zayn's girlfriend. I guess it'll be fun but I need to make sure to get some more cover-up and many bracelets cause well, I need something to cover up my cuts cause I have a big feeling they are going to force me into getting some short sleeved shirts. And since today is October 20 that means 10 days until my birthday.

'Til next time

Rachel 10-20-2012.

Once I finished writing I put my journal in a secret hiding place also known as inside one of the pillows I decide to change into my normal pajamas, a over sized long-sleeved t shirt and some sweatpants both of them are gray but I still love them. Once I finished doing that I decided I was going to play a song that I wrote but I just need to grab the guitar. I sneak downstairs to see that only Niall ,Zayn and Perrie are the only ones awake besides me of course. I successfully make my way there without being seen now all I have to do is sneak past them with a guitar in my hands. Yes I'm almost there come on, come on, come on. "Rachel?" Niall asks. Damn it he saw me. "Um yeah," I say quite nervously to be honest. "What are you doing," he asks. "I'm bringing the guitar up to my room so I can play it in my room" I say a bit more confidently than I expected. "Okay just bring it back down when your done with it," Niall says "Kay" I say and run back up to my room. I place the guitar by my bed and grab my song journal. Here we go "Mean" (Song on side)

You, with your words like knives

And swords and weapons that you use against me

You have knocked me off my feet again

Got me feeling like I'm nothing

You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard

Calling me out when I'm wounded

You picking on the weaker man

You can take me down with just one single blow

But you don't know, what you don't know...

Someday I'll be living in a big ol' city

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your switching sides

And your wildfire lies and your humiliation

You have pointed out my flaws again

As if I don't already see them

I walk with my head down

Trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you

I just wanna feel okay again

I bet you got pushed around

Somebody made you cold

But the cycle ends right now

'Cause you can't lead me down that road

And you don't know, what you don't know...

Someday I'll be living in a big ol' city

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

And I can see you years from now in a bar

Talking over a football game

With that same big loud opinion

But nobody's listening

Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things

Drunk and grumbling on about how I can't sing

But all you are is mean

All you are is mean

And a liar, and pathetic, and alone in life

And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean

But someday I'll be living in a big ol' city

And all you're ever gonna be is mean, yeah

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so?..

Someday I'll be living in a big ol' city 

And all you're ever gonna be is mean 

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me 

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

"Did you write that?" I hear a girl voice say from the doorway. I look up and realise it's Perrie. "Yeah why?""Cause I think with your beautiful singing you should be signed on a record label" she says. Uh how am I supposed to reply to this um think, think, think. "Um thanks?' I say though it came out as a question. I got up and me and her left my room. I went downstairs and saw Niall was the only one down now everyone else must be asleep upstairs. "Hey," he whispers. "Hi" I whisper back to him and I continue back over to where the 'sound room' was and put the guitar away. "Night" I tell Niall. "Night" He says and comes over to me trying to kiss my forehead but inside I flinched away and ran upstairs.